Posted 8/20/2015 11:01 PM (GMT 0)
As some of you have read, I just got back from vacation late Sunday and have been having a really hard time since I got back. I barely managed to drag myself through work yesterday and my shift at my other job last night. On the way home, my daughter called. I haven't talked to her for awhile and was happy to catch up, but don't think I talked much. She was so sweet and I felt terrible because I wasn't really "there" and listened a lot. Anyway, I got home and just laid down and cried. I was having anxiety symptoms and was sure I was about to fall over with a heart attack too. I barely ate any dinner before dragging myself to work at the last minute. My stomach was in an awful knot and I was nauseous all evening. Half way into my shift, I asked to go home which I NEVER do. I called my son and told him what was going on. He very patiently and sweetly reassured me that there was no need to go to the ER because I just had myself very worked up. We talked for about a half hour or more and finally I felt a little better after crying my eyes out and talking to him. I went to bed and managed to get to sleep. When the alarm went off this morning, I felt exhausted and turned it off and told work I'd be in later in the morning. I got here but am not really feeling here...just going through the motions, quiet and feeling down. I ate a salad but that's it so far today. I just don't feel good mentally or physically or have any energy : (