Posted 9/14/2015 4:05 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks Scaredy Cat & Hibee ,
I will Pray and Hope for the best . I dont like it but my mind usually jumps to the worst case scenario , I guess I do this so I can prepare myself for the worst and be ready .
Today my family and I went to Church and I actually started crying during mass just thinking about my Mom , if I ever lost her then I would go crazy and never get over it . She is such an amazing human being and I honestly mean that . What makes me feel worse is that she deserves sooo much more then me , I am a Loser , no job , no life , Im an embarrassment to her compared to what her friends children are doing , but yet she loves me soo much and does soo much for me . I just feel she deserves a son whos going to med school or with a good paying job , because she really deserves alot , and I Thank God everyday for making me soo lucky to have this great person in my lady , I truly am grateful for that .
I cried during mass today , and when I went to the car today I noticed her hospital bracelet was in there .
Thanks again for the replies , Im really hoping and praying this is just a ultrasound check up and nothing serious . Her attitude is different aswell , I keep asking her if everythings OK and she says its fine , maybe shes scared aswell ?
Oh gosh ..... Life really hits you hard in these situations , you really start questioning what is life and the important things in life .