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Posted 10/20/2015 2:20 AM (GMT 0)
Hey guys,

I've been trying my absolute best and doing everything I can and it just seems like I'm stuck in this crap cycle and it feels like I'll never be able to enjoy things again. Only three months ago did I have my motivation, my energy and my outlook on life taken away from me and replaced with apathy, anxiety, and negative thinking. I've been on Lexapro 10mg for almost 5 weeks and Xanax to be taken as needed. Even though I'm not laying around all day and getting up in the middle of every night, I don't know what else I can do. I'm feeling so frustrated and annoyed that as a 27 year old man I cant be normal and enjoy a couple of brews with the boys without fear of having my mind go into anxiety mode. I keep feeling guilty for things that I shouldn't feel guilty for and mistakes that humans make but my mind keeps playing over and over that I'm a horrible person. Sorry but I'm just ranting on how I feel. I would never do anything to harm myself but I'm just so tired of living like this, if this is even considered living?

-AK
Posted 10/20/2015 3:04 AM (GMT 0)
Hi AK,

I'm so sorry you still feel awful after 5 weeks on Lexapro. :( Perhaps you need to talk to your doctor about re-evaluating your meds. My guess is that you just need a dosage increase and some more time. I know 5 weeks seems like forever but you have to go at the speed that your meds get into your head.

I know exactly what you are going through. When I was on a low dose of Zoloft, I felt absolutely horrible and had all of your symptoms. I was on 50mg for 4 weeks and then 100mg for 4 more weeks with no improvement. It was really hard to get through two months of apathy, depression, and anxiety! All I did was lay in bed. :( Once I was put on a higher dose, I felt improvement right away.

It also helped me a great deal when my doc added a secondary med to help my AD along. Once I got rid of the depression, I still had the apathy and a bit of anxiety. Gabapentin works miracles for me, but there are a ton of options out there. Something to discuss with your doctor.

Take care, and keep us posted as always.

-Cat
Posted 10/20/2015 5:42 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks for the insight BC. How is everything going with you?
Posted 10/20/2015 9:11 AM (GMT 0)
Hi AK

Sorry to hear you are having a tough time at the moment.

Although you are 5 weeks in to taking your Lexapro this is still classed as the start up period which usually lasts for 8 weeks. It seems to be the norm for things to get worse before getting better during this period so I agree that speaking with your doctor about it.

Double up on any coping skills you have and keep us posted we are here for you.

Hibee
Posted 10/20/2015 2:09 PM (GMT 0)
aloha-
i am not sure if this is your first time on ssri's...however i can tell you my first experience sounds exactly like yours...i did not feel better after 5 weeks...i would say it did take about 8 weeks before i felt any marked improvement and up to that point it was a struggle..but it got better..stay in close contact with your doctor, they work for you..checking in with them every 2 weeks to chat about how you are doing is not unreasonable...hang in there
Posted 10/20/2015 2:16 PM (GMT 0)
Hi AK,

I know how you feel. There was also a time in my life where I felt like nothing seems to matter anymore. But don't worry it will get better. I understand your meds aren't working. Sometimes medications have side effects maybe that's what you're suffering from. Try consulting your clinician about it.

You can also try other methods as well. In my experience, medications tend to work better with backed up with proper lifestyle and a better health condition. Try some counseling methods, exercise, a better diet, and well-balanced sleeping procedures. Natural remedies works as well.

Never give up on life. There are things worth fighting for. Find your passion and attain it. You're still young. I hope you the best in life. Good Luck.
Posted 10/20/2015 2:18 PM (GMT 0)
jules makes good points as well..

when i was struggling i FORCED myself to get out and do things and be with my friends..and it helped..and they were happy to have a designated driver :-)

no matter what your situation..you have to keep putting one foot in front of the other..even if they are baby steps..
Posted 10/20/2015 3:41 PM (GMT 0)
AK, I'm doing fine, thanks for asking. (And you will be, too!) :)
Posted 10/20/2015 4:59 PM (GMT 0)
AK,

Great support and advice above...

...so I will just add my positive thoughts and prayers for you.:)

Things are going to get better...be patient with yourself and the process...it's gonna happen!

With encouragement,

S.C.
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