Hi lesweet thanks.
I have been waiting for a call from the rheumy clinic to ask about
my referral to the neuro doc. At first my rheumy thinks I don't have anything autoimmune, she said it might be my anxiety. Think she changed her mind on something. I have slightly enlarged saliva glands and dry mouth and eyes therefore I suspect something along the lines of sjogrems syndrome. She took a blood test of my vitamin levels. I think the most insulting is her emphasizing on my 'self harming thoughts'. I was just being honest to help her find a diagnosis. But instead of taking full notice of my aches and pains she made me an appointment with a psych. Not happy being sick, but I just want to know what is specifically wrong with my body so I can get treatment.
I also think that the derealization started after too much stress and anxiety which I have been having. A whole lot. Honestly it bothers me bcos I feel pain differently. Like I tried punching a wall(weird i know). My normal self would flinch or have a reaction quick but now I don't feel pain as much as before.
Anyways I'm just glad I have people to talk to here. I really dont know how to say it to 'normal' people without getting the feeling of being judged. I'm 22 and I feel like my life is almost over. I am aware of my depression and I am seeking help. I hope to live happily like I used to. Being young is everything until you get a fever one day and everything comes tumbling down afterwards.
Sorry for the rant, I dont know any of you personally but youve been helpful and I am thankful for each and every one of you. God bless you.
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