Posted 11/15/2015 12:18 AM (GMT 0)
Monophobia. I'm a 16 year old who's had anxiety/panic from a young age, and it's the most awkward feeling in the world. I'll be the first to admit I'm an angsty teenager, and I want to put my earbuds in to be left alone- but I don't want to be ALONE. As in- I want people in the general vicinity, but I don't want them to interact with me.
Right now, my ideal safe environment is at home, on the computer, while my mom does something other than talk to me. I almost melt into the wallpaper- I'm in my own world, doing my own thing, not having to deal with people, like every angsty teenager loves- but mom is nearby in case I have an attack or need to talk to someone.
I want to be left alone, but I want people to be nearby all the time incase I need to talk to them or start to struggle. It's conflicting and awkward to feel, and I want to shake it so I can be more independent with less anxiety (I want to be able to go to the store and not always stay with my mom in my sight, ect.).
Here's hoping I can kick my monophobia soon!