When does the suffering stop

Hey everyone,

Some of you already know me on here and some don't but Hi to every single one of you and I hope you are all okay.

I have been suffering from depersonalization for nearly two years and I have found that is it not so bad when I don't take codeine as codeine seems to have a bad reaction with some of the other meds I am taking. Its not easy to stop taking codeine however since I have taken it on and off for over 14 years.

I nearly had an anxiety attack a couple of days ago and I think that is the reason I am feeling the way I am now . My Mum died 4 months ago and my Dad has just been told he has pre-cancerous cells in his throat so there is a lot of emotional stress going on and I don't know how much longer I can deal with this for.

I don't want to give up on life but I cant remember the last time I was truly happy :(

Hugs and support to all of you love Bigshow

Thank you, yes I am on Duluxutine, Mirtrizipine, Diazapam, levothyoxine too......the codeine with these makes me feel so weird after the initial high.

Thank you for your kind words.

Are you okay?

Hey sorry for late reply, I went through a really rough time last year when I had an anxiety attack in Feb and then I felt spaced out ever since but I did notice that NOT taking codeine def made me feel better so I know what I have to do to at least feel a bit better. I take far less diazapam when I am not taking codeine and my anxiety is so much better, its just such a hard drug to come off. Im scared now because I had an anxiety attack the other day and I am worried it is all starting up again.

Thanks so much for support, my aim was to come off codeine, then diazapam and then gradually the anti-depressants too so that is still the plan but I keep making things worse by taking the codeine. The weird thing is even though I know I am feeling bad because of the codeine, I still feel like it is something else causing it and that I am going mad but my consultant told me that if I was going mad, I would not even know it.

How is everyone else? Sorry to talk about me so much. Hope everyone is okay.

Codeine is highly addicting med so will take time to wean off.

Very sorry for your parents and have no words to console you.

We are with you in HW during this time of your loss.

Emotional stress is very difficult to deal with but don't worry as its situational.

Meds will help you in recovery and healing so don't feel bad taking them ,weaning when necessary .

I have always been scared of meds but know now and accept that I might have to take them for rest of my life.
I myself suffer from depersonalization at times ......
Keep posting ......
Good luck!!

Hi SBS,

Great job on getting a discontinuation plan going with your doctor. I am sending you encouragement and perseverance in reaching your weaning goals! You can do this...and you can count on us to keep you in support.

I do hope you can employ all of the self help/coping skills/resources you can find to get you through this transition.

It may be a challenge...but you are taking a great step for your overall physical and mental health, and feeling your best!

We are here cheering you on, so keep us updated okay?

S.C.