I need a break..

My son (16) went skate boarding 9 days ago and busted his arm/wrist. Broke both bones. Doc first wanted to do surgery but when they straightened it the arm aligned just right and he got lucky. No pins or plate to hold it in place.
He of course is my baby. Seeing him hurt and in pain has been so hard for me. He is sleeping in the livingroom on a futon we purchased just for him. I stayed up for 7 days and nights with little sleep to make sure he was watched over. ( The family pets kept trying to jump on him so I was "guard" ) Hubby decided to take the last 2 nights so I have gotten some much needed sleep.

Anyway like a lot of you here I have health anxiety. Anything medical sets me off. So for the past nine days I have dealt with pounding racing heart, light headdness, feeling like I am going to faint. Oh the joy. And flash backs of when I broke my wrist 30 years ago. Was watching Minority Report with the son yesterday and had to leave the room for the part where he gets his eyes switched out. I was sooo going to hit the floor. ( at least it felt that way) Weak legs, fast breathing, racing heart, nauseous. It was horrible.

He gets his hard cast today. I am hoping I can make it thru the day without having another major issue. My hubby will take him to the doc to have it done. I can't go. Couldn't go to the hospital when it happened. And can't be there today to support him. I even had my oldest daughter come up from TX for some support. I used to not be like this.
I just want it to go away. So I can be the person my kids can rely on. Instead of the weak one who they all try to protect.
This just stinks. I already feel a little off knowing he has to have some work done today to put that arm in a real cast... poor guy. I wish I could be there for him. But he knows I can't handle it and doesn't want me there. He shouldn't have to worry about me and if I can handle it or not. Thats MY job... Not his.

Oh enough spewing my feelings. Have a wonderful day everyone.

Sounds like it's a major trigger for you. During times like that where I'm 'activated' meaning my stress level is high and anxiety is constant, I try to make sure I'm doing things to take care of myself. Hot baths, going to the coffee shop, taking myself out to lunch or wandering around a bookstore.

Remember to 'put your oxygen mask on first'. If
You take care of yourself, you'll be in a better position to take care of others.

I'm on the opposite end of it, my kids are fine, but my 73 yo father fell and shattered his knee and my 65 yo mother in law
Fell and broke a shoulder, not to mention I have my 3 yo at home w me on MWF's. It's a lot, especially as a mom, so go easy on yourself.