Anxiety: Always switching gears

I have an endoscopy set up for this coming Tuesday. The previous week, I was feeling pretty good. Weight has leveled, stomach was rumbling, and food was more appetizing. Figured this would all turn out to be in my mind, or something minor. I had been fighting the negative thoughts using yoga, meditation, music and positive talks.

Wednesday, I took a walk outside. It was sunny, but a bit of a cold wind. At the end of the walk I felt a bit light headed. Of course this freaked my out thinking what was this? My thoughts were wondering if it was my heart. It subsided when I got in. I tried not to Google it, closed the window 3 times, but ultimately did. I did read that blood vessels do constrict and this sensation can occur when it is cold. And I have experienced this before. But the anxious mind did not want to listen.

So my anxiety went from the digestive issues, to my heart. What if all this stress was affecting it? So I set up an appointment with a Cardiologist next week. So the past day or so has been focused on my heart. Have had 2 nights of really rough sleep.

So today, I see I lost 2 pounds despite eating better. Well now I am freaking out that it is my digestive issue and something is really wrong. Suddenly my clothes feel baggier, and I feel I cannot get through the next 3 days until the procedure. My bowel movements are normal, I am eating, and I have no pain, and very little indigestion. I am telling myself it is most likely the anxiety of the last two days, along with some weight lifting, that is the cause of the loss. I am still not eating as I once did, but I am sure that is just the anxiety hanging around.

I have already gave myself a pep talk of all of these positive things, but it keeps coming back, over and over. I made it through 2 weeks, I can make it through 3 days. I just wish I could relax just a little. All I am fixated on now is the results, and the current weight loss. Ughhhhh!!!!

I just feel it has to be in my mind. Or at least most of it. My mind thinks its my heart, then that beats fast, I think it is my stomach, and then I am now thinking doom and gloom. Really need to kick this to the curb for a few more days, just wish I knew how. Any suggestions would be appreciated.

Thank you. That is why I like it here. So many people who can relate and so many stories that I can relate to as well. Also tons of support and ways for all of us to live better with anxiety.

It is also frustrating. I had a relatively great week, staving off any small worries. I really felt good. Then one little trigger and I have had trouble keeping the barn doors standing. I told my wife I wish I didn't take that walk, but you can't beat yourself up for that.

I have been telling myself today, why can't it just be my mind? Why does it have to be worse case scenario. It is just as likely, even more than likely it will be something minor if anything.

In your experience, how much have you, or known someone to lose though anxiety? I know it seems mine has suppressed my hunger, but I imagine the constant racing heart, and blood flow, can burn calories as well. Just really something that over the past week of feeling good my weight stayed relatively the same, two days after the new round of worry, it has dropped.

Thank you. My Doctor said the same thing. It is the psychological issue with seeing it go down. But yeah, even during my rough sleep nights, my heart is going, breathing, even sweating. And I did do some weights yesterday. So I know that is going to account for a bit. So in reality, it probably is not that big of a deal. I have not been eating as my normal self yet, but at least I am eating. Just have to keep looking at positives.