Thank you :)
I started with Lexapro (1st AD) in November of '08 after my stillborn son followed by 2 miscarriages. I felt a huge change in just 2 weeks. My anxiety was nearly gone, I could function, I wanted to do things, I had my life back. Unfortunately, in December of '13 my doctor decided it was time to move on, I wasn't receiving any benefits. I had a scare that my cancer returned in my ovaries after beating cancer earlier that year. Had a breakdown.
I switched to Zoloft. It was a nightmare!! Lost 25lbs because I couldn't eat, physically sick, horrible depression, panic attacks that would last 4-5 hours with Xanax not even touching them, hallucinations, thoughts of harming my kids. I was living in hell. I gave it 6 weeks, just kept getting worse.
Tried Cymbalta and Celexa afterwards. They did nothing but make me angry, irritable, and have no patience. Didn't help with anxiety at all.
Went back to Lexapro hoping it would work again, but it didn't.
Now here I am 4 weeks on 20mg of Prozac. It's been a ride. Physically had alot of GI issues. It's let up. Had some good days, felt hopeful. Had some days where my anxiety and panic were running rampid. Some days I've felt sad.
My doctor gave me 3 choices:
-Since its only been 4 weeks keep on the 20mg a bit longer
-Go up to 40mg
-Try something new
I'm terrified to try something new. I've got 4 weeks in on Prozac, I don't want to give up...maybe it will work, maybe it needs more time. I'm scared to go up because what if it heightens the depression and anxiety I've been having the last few days. I'm confused, lost, and frustrated. No one in my life understands.
I should mention last week my best friend found her 27 year old brother deceased. I spent last week with them, helping anyway I could. Showing was Friday, funeral was Saturday. It was hard. I can't help but wonder if it triggered me, I also found my sister deceased 20+ years ago. I know what it's like to have those images. What pain she will carry. What this does to a family. I couldn't help but have thoughts that I could be like her brother, not dead, but having demons so horrible they never let go. He was a veteran with severe PTSD and anxiety along with a brain injury from service. He lived with horrible demons.
I just don't know what to place this on and where to go from here. There's no real right answer, it's all a gamble.
Post Edited (kwilson) : 5/10/2016 9:37:14 AM (GMT-6)