Hi everyone
I haven't been on here for a while so much has been going on. I lost my beautiful dad to cancer last year in October, He was diagnosed and gone within 4 weeks, its been devastating for my family. I have been busy supporting my mum selling her house and last week we moved her in to a retirement village which will be wonderful for her. But since Sunday I have crashed, I'm crying everyday , finding it hard to complete tasks and my anxiety levels have increased especially on wakening, Is this Grief??? or Depression???
I weaned off Effexor back in March/April been on off and on it for years up 375mg didn't feel I was getting enough relief and wanted to try something new and started Brintellix 5mg whilst weaning off completely since mid April, then went to 10mg sat there for 4 weeks, with emotions a little up and down (which can also be from withdrawal of the Effexor) and now on 10 days at 15mgs,have had increased anxiety and tummy probs, diarrhea etc Ive need to take valium this week which I haven't needed for a while.
I feel really scared and alone, I'm crying s lot because I miss him so deeply, we were close. But I'm also feeling physically vulnerable with the anxiety and low mood that I worry I'm going to get worse, depression wise. My doctor tells me she thinks its the grief and to just go with the emotions, its so painful though and having gone through a couple nervous breakdowns , with severe insomnia, shakes, panic attacks and depression I'm scared.I certainly don't want to even go back to that.
I have made some good changes in my life selling my business, exercising, quit smoking and being kind to my self.
Ive had some weeks where I feel quite good, wanting to socialize , cook and even clean but this setback is frightening me.
Would love so much to have some support on anyone's experience with Brintallix and grief, Thank you so much , Lots of Love
