the opposite

anyone seen that episode of seinfeld where george realizes everything he has ever done has got him nowhere in life and left him unfulfilled and unhappy? anyhow, he decides to do the exact opposite of whatever he would normally do under the assumption that following his instincts up till this point has been "wrong" doing the opposite of his instinct must be "right." it's pretty funny.

anyways, when it comes to my fears and phobias, and ocd tendencies, my therapist and i talked about challenging and testing the theories i have made up in my head, basically, doing the opposite of what my anxious brain is telling me. i wont get into it, but i do a lot of absurd things to try to hold onto control and it just makes my world a smaller and smaller place. for the next three weeks and beyond, i am going to try to prove or, hopefully disprove all these limits i've put on myself to try to control anxiety. i'm pretty excited about it, nervous too, but whenever i have been forced to do things i thought would be anxiety provoking, i always looked back and said, hey that wasnt so bad.

i challenge you friends to push yourself as well. i know it will be a long, slow, process but i am looking forward to many small victories to build my confidence like a snowball rolling down a hill getting bigger and bigger.

so, here goes, wish me luck!

I've been using this mindset and challenging myself for a while now. It does help.