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Folks,

I hardly believe any of what's happening with me is anything major, but here goes.

I'm finally shaving my head today and have some anxiety about how my dome is going to look. That hair ain't coming back! I've had some skin issues on my scalp and hope they won't be more prevalent. Perhaps the air will help heal them.

Any time I wake up now, my second toe tingles like it's asleep on both feet. My second toe is longer than my big toe. I wonder if it could have anything to do with my weight gain. I'm hoping for no diabetes, but my sugar intake is high even though I know better deep down. Glucose levels came back normal from some recent blood work. Is this even related to diabetes?

I learned of a death this week. It was my friend's 39 year old brother. He had a heart attack. When I heard, my hands and feet started to tingle... the hair on the back of my neck and what's left on my head stood on end. Then I saw his obituary yesterday. Same feelings. Now I'm thinking about his 4 year old son. Same feelings. It's the anxiety monster.

Part of this is me asking for help and part is so newer members can realize they can recognize their own symptoms without great worry. The thing with my toes does confuse me.

-smooth

...oh and the toe tingling?

Welcome to middle aged nerve compression. ..

I wake up with numb/tingling hands more often than not...side sleeping. :/

S.C.

Smooth,

I wonder if your second toe is hitting the top of your shoes since it's the longest? Toes are so small and are more susceptible to nerve compression. I wore heels to a concert once and my toes were numb for about week from the compression.

As for the hair- I dig that look! It'll look so good! Can't wait to see the pictures

Again, I'm so sorry about your friends brother, and the anxiety that shortly crept up afterwards.
Keeping your friend and his family and you in my prayers <3

John,

You'll look awesome with the shaved head.

I'm sorry to hear about your friend. Losing someone so young puts so much into perspective and really makes you look at your own mortality too.

As for the toe. I'm with SC. Probably not diabetes related of your glucose is good!

Thanks to all for their input.

The weekend with the shaved head was good, but the maintenance is going to be crazy! I know someone that shaves his every 2-3 days. It's just like a beard. Now my head feels kind of weird. People at the salon think I look better since I was thinning and I got mostly good feedback this weekend. Ma says she likes me with hair better. Of course she does. *sigh*

I'm trying to let my toes annoy me. It's just one of those things. I'm going to start back at the gym today for a 5th or 6th time (not kidding) and see how it goes. No squats! I have to keep that hernia in check!

Well, while it was a sad affair, the clock literally turned back 20 years this weekend. It was truly amazing. I was hardly recognizable anyway most likely, I certainly wasn't with the bald head for most. Instead of being shy, I engaged people. My dear friend's sister said I need to come to town so she can help me out with the ladies. ROFL. I spoke to a classmate's older sister for a long time, but unfortunately she's married. My friend's sister thinks I should rock a beard, but I'm even worse with beard maintenance.

Anywayyyy, my friend's brother was truly loved. I don't worry about her too much because she has such a solid support system. It was heartbreaking to talk to her dad, but he's a strong man. I was supportive, but did say the worst has yet to come because I went through it. I really just wanted them to keep the support going even after the fact. I told my friend, her husband, her friend, just how highly I think of her. All this really is unfair, but God has a plan for us all. Does anyone have any experience with starting a large fund raiser? I'd like to raise some funds for his 4 year old's education fund. Since we have 14 years or so, I would like to put the money into an account that will be low-risk and guaranteed to accrue interest. I don't care for the fees associated with Go Fund Me and such. As a business major, I should know this stuff.

-smooth

Scaredy,

On the way home, I felt happy; reborn almost. Once I get back here where I live, the feeling dissipated. I'm still California dreaming. If that doesn't work out, I should maybe try to go back down there. I've struggled with the decision for years.

We can donate to the fund in lieu of flowers for his father, but I just wanted to do more to help.

-smooth