Posted 9/3/2016 7:28 PM (GMT 0)
Hey y'all,
It's week three-ish and my second week on 50mg of sertraline with 0.5mg of lorazepam before bed. I'm not having the best day between hormones, projects coming due, and moving out of my parents' place, but I thought I'd check in.
I've seen a lot of posts recently about finding the right meds and knowing when they work so I thought I'd share.
I know my meds work for me because for the first time in my life, soothing behaviors work. Curling up in bed with a movie feels good. Deep breathing before a stressful event works. My positive mantras WORK because my brain is finally open to being soothed. I can relax totally and completely in the evenings because my dumb, brilliant brain needed some pharmacological help and it's getting it. I feel present for the first time in years and the only thing it costs me is no beer. No the pills don't magically make me not anxious. They make me CAPABLE of being something other than a mess.
So I am dependent on medication. So what? Taking a tiny pill every day for the foreseeable future is not nearly as depressing as ACTUAL anxiety, OCD, and depression . I am twenty-freaking-three years old and I feel ALIVE for the first time I can remember.