Hi Everyone-
Here I am still SSRI free since October 5th. Brain Zaps are non-existent and have been for quite some time. I am so sorry I have not posted any updates as I have been dealing with lots of issues with my mother being very ill. Which is what brings me to why I am actually posting today. I am having great difficulty with dealing with my mother being sick. Constant bad thoughts and always fearful of impending doom. My moods are terrible as I am as nasty as any one person could be about
80% of the time. I HATE it. I am so short tempered with everyone and the littlest thing sets me off. I just don't know what to do. I am 4 months SSRI free however on rare occasion I will take 0.5mg Ativan to take the edge off but I don't like to do that often as I don't want to get dependent on needing them. I have considered going back on medication here in the past couple weeks. I am just not sure what to do. I do know that I am not liking myself, not ONE BIT. I hate having horrible racing bad thoughts on a constant basis, I hate that I am so nasty toward people over the littlest of things. I am sure the pressures of my mom being sick and me being the primary one to handle things is probably adding to my issues. But I am just at my wits end. I am very hesitant to request to be put back on the SSRI's to seek help but at the same time I feel like I am never going to get out of this funk/horrible place in my mind any other way