a treat for my flight today

It is that supafunk.. And to think i was that close to cancelling . I truthfully never in a million years thought with the state i was in and level of the A/D i would even get out the door from home.

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Oh well !!
Not a good day i'm afraid , Im thinking its because i took my eye off the ball...
Only a short walk out today, rest of time sat on our terrace ☹
Anxiety levels high, very uncomfortable and all the rubbish that goes with it.
This might sound daft.. but i had eaten warm crusty bread , that caused tummy ache, that caused me to get a bit anxious .. Then tummy ache turned to indegestion....Then panic sets in and all the sensible stuff i have in my head is over run with ridiculas thoughts and of course before i know it i cant breathe, i have pins and needles in my arms and face and so on and so on.

I am furious with my self ☹

Tomorrow is a new day. Don't be too hard on yourself. We all have days that we struggle, even when we know better. I hope you both are feeling better soon.

Thank you peeps , 🙂
I hope you day and self improved SC. Why do the health issues create panic in the brain? darned annoying.

Lol i went to bed in such a strop last night, but even with all the anx i slept like a baby.
Any way just that uncomfortable jittery feeling today so was determined to try and walk it off We set off across the beach checking out all the beautiful shells, trying to feel it but faking it really , we walked about 3 miles then went into the old town, we sat and listened to our favorite Sax player but i could not sit still for long but we made him a promise that we would go up the hills to his restaurant tomorrow night.
I did a bit of my forest gump walking back in the hope that the quicker and further i walked the calmer i would feel
Back at the hotel .. i could tell D was a bit disappointed that we had rushed things so i bravely suggested lunch at a nearby taverna. I got through it just wish i could feel a bit more uplifted, yesterday really put a downer on me. So a more relaxed walk on the beach other direction to the rocks where we chilled for a while... faking it till im making it 😉
Nothing to upset my digestion today chicken salad NO CRUSTY HOT BREAD followedby fresh fruit and yogurt.
Back to our apartment as the winds got up a bit (forcast thunderstorm) later. Both having a read and a doze the walk and fresh air worked a lil bit not as anx no wild thoughts just that uncomfy feeling.
That i can cope with for now.. But as we are dining out 😱 tonight for my birthday meal, i am going to listen to a nice relaxtion peice on my ipad.
Thanks again you lot you are stars xx😇

Happy Birthday! I hope you feel tip top soon.

If I can be so bold as to make a suggestion - see if you can find the audiobook "Hope and Help for your Nerves" by Dr. Claire Weekes, and give it a listen. I find it very useful and comforting. I got it through my library app on my phone. It was done in the mid-sixties, but the concepts are still valid. You just have to smile at the old school jargon.

I suggest this because she talks about overcoming anxiety very much in the way you're attempting to recover. Fake it til you make, one foot in front of the other, not wanting to back down.
It's only an hour and a half, and it seems like it might be right down your alley.

Thanks guys.
Rspwed .. I am going to have a look now thanks for that xx

So happy that you made it home after a good trip. Anxiety is awful but you fought through it! Be gentle with yourself for the next few days. I've found when I push myself I have to lay low the next day to deal with the anxiety "hangover".

Congrats again!!

Thanks guys,
Day of adjusting back and getting in the now moment.
Back in to work tomorrow x
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Focus on enjoying your own lovely perfect pillows! (at least that's my favorite when I get home!)