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Posted 10/29/2016 9:52 PM (GMT 0)
Hi guys. I have suffered anxiety for 18 years now. Had some better years in there and some really bad. A few months ago I went through the worst patch of my life, to the point the anxiety made me suicidal because my brain wouldn't stop and I felt like I was literally suffocating. I know a lot of that was due to them having me try lexapro and it messed me up really bad made me 100 times worse. It's been about 10 weeks on Paxil, I was feeling better for about 2 weeks I was so excited. The past few days I have felt very anxious and depressed and I think I'm making it worse because my mind has me so scared I'm going to be like I was a few months ago. As I sit here righting this my tears are splashing my screen. Why does anxiety always ruin everything?! Why can't I just be happy and at peace like I so badly want. I don't want any of this.
Years ago I was on Paxil but only 20 mg it worked well for a couple years and I was dumb and wanted to try something else. I've never had the depression with the anxiety before until the whole mess with the lexapro 3 'moths ago. Now being on Paxil 40 for 10 weeks why does it seem to have just stopped working? And other than anxiety and sadness I don't feel any other emotions right now and that's not me. I fake the smiles, the laughter. You get it. My pcp won't see me anymore for my anxiety meds cause he feels he is letting me down and wants me to see a psychiatrist, problem I can't ring one without horrible reviews and I don't wanna play the whole med change again!
Do you think the Paxil still may need a little more time for me since I was so messed up with the lexapro?
Any good thoughts and guidance and encouragement is greatly appreciated. ❤️🙏🏻
Posted 10/29/2016 10:20 PM (GMT 0)
I'm so sorry you are having this rough of a time. I have had anxiety and panic now for about 19 years. Wow, it is a long time. I still feel like I mourn my "normal" life and I'm sure that doesn't help me now. I've had ups and downs too and a couple really desperate points in my life. Feeling the possibility of self harm is another reason I have always steered clear from trying meds. I've had issues with that without meds.

If you can't find a local phychiatrist can you branch out a little further? The one person I used to have in my corner was a phychologist and she really helped me then. It is worth finding the right person to help you. It is really worth everything. Our primary care Docs really only have limited experience and knowledge with these types of mental issues and they do what they can but I'm not sure they get it sometimes.

Do you have a close friend or live with someone who can keep an eye on you in case you get depressed?

((HUGS))
Posted 10/29/2016 10:44 PM (GMT 0)
Yes my husband and my two daughters. This bad spell started again in august when my son left for college. Miss him so much it hurts and all I can think about now is in another 4 years my one daughter leaves and 8 more years my baby leaves. I have a great therapist he's a Christian counselor and is amazing, the only thing is he is so booked I can only get in every 2 weeks. I think I may need a psychiatrist who can look over my meds and maybe I need sifferent ones idk. I know from past experiences with the right meds it can give you your life back and focus more on the healing and coping skills.
Posted 10/30/2016 3:31 AM (GMT 0)
IWTFGA,

I do think this is a case of temporary breakthrough anxiety...and that you will get past this! Use your coping skills...repeat positive reassuring statements...and stay optimistic!

I also think that you should pursue an appointment with a P-doc as well though...just to get in and get an initial/baseline appointment going, so that you can have your long term plans and goals mapped out with your new management team.:)

You are going to get back on track...this is just a short detour along the road to recovery. :)

S.C.
Posted 10/30/2016 3:41 AM (GMT 0)
Thank you! I sure hope so. ❤️
Posted 10/30/2016 9:43 AM (GMT 0)
Sharing your worries , fears, and issues is on here is good. .. You are getting them out of your head writing them down and so releasing some of those negative thoughts.

Like SC says it sounds like breakthrough anxiety.... But you can beat it....

Walk ..talk... mantra... music... meditation....all these things will help get you back on track

And if you can get in with a PD all the better.. I am waiting to start CBT but i am working on self help and if i am really desperate my GP gave me some diazepam for emergency situ's to help break the cycle.

So keep strong and focused YOU WILL get there xx
Posted 10/31/2016 4:38 AM (GMT 0)
If your primary doc doesn't feel comfortable treating you for anxiety any more, ask him for a specific referral for a psychiatrist. Let him pick the best one!
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