Few setbacks

So I have been doing better overall. Not perfect but better but the last couple days the burning and itching skin and increased anxiety is back. I'm not sure if the burning and itching is causing the anxiety or the anxiety is causing the burning and itching. I have also been waking up to rapid heart rate since the burning has been back.

I have been doing ok with hubby leaving for work but he's going on a longer run and will be gone longer and more days so I think that is bothering me too.

I have decided that anx meds are not going to happen. Since trying the effexor for a few days I went ahead and read back up on the studies and did some research and I just don not plan to do this again right now. I felt horrible and did not sleep for three days. My blood pressure has also gone up even higher since that little experiment and I am not going to be a test subject. Dr. was talking about adding more bp meds, sleeping pills to keep on the effexor and another pill for reflux for the added bp med and no is my answer. Now I am not monitoring my bp daily because I am sick of being scared and giving myself panic attacks. Having to decide when I have those panic attacks to take an extra bp med that has been doing nothing for me but give me tachycardia when I get up. Since I stopped this particular med the tachycardia episodes when I have to get up to go to the bathroom have also stopped.

The more meds they give me the worse I feel and then they want to give me more meds to cover that all up.

Anyway my anxiety is up today. It didn't help that I had a bad dream this morning either.

I am going to start yoga class. I am so scared to do this. It is just one day a week but I do not do well in public and it is freaking me out. I think this will help me in the long run though and I need to try it.

I have checked back into counseling again. They have some new ones so I would like to try someone new. But... I have to get our taxes figured out and filed because I have to have income to take in and we have no insurance and my hubby works for himself so it isn't as easy as taking in a check stub so we will work on that.

Today I just feel dizzy, sad and anxious :/

Hi T2R
I had been thinking about you, wondering how you have been doing. Glad you have had some good days, and today may just be a glitch.
Dont try to do everything at once. We are all guilty of that when it feels so good to be anxiety free, we try to cram so much in from missing out on so much.

Keep up the good work xx😊
Rooting for you in continued wellness 😊

Well today was to be the first day of yoga but our instructor is sick. She was really great to let us know. I had a bad night last night anyway. I'm not sure what is going on. I woke up about every 1 1/2 to 2 hours with tachycardia. It calmed easy enough each time and I went back to sleep so that is ok. I have learned that I don't have to panic over it unless it lasts a long time, then all bets are off. Still I had some vertigo and I have been dizzy all day. I was extremely worried because the last time I had any vertigo my bp was super high and the clinic admitted me to the ER. I got enough guts up to take my bp and it was acceptable so I was thanking God for that small favor today. I called the Dr and had her write an order for me to get my potassium retested because sometimes that being low contributes to this tachy stuff. I really don't know what all is going on but I am trying to get through it and praying not to involve the ER at any point. We got bad news that was a set back for work that will cost us 2000 for a repair but it is ok we will figure out how to get through it I think. I am trying here so I hope the universe will work with me a little here <3

SC ((HUGS))!!