Health anxiety, so scared I have something sinister.

So to start off, I used to be a normal 20 year old guy, content with life, happy, never had stress or stressed too much about things. Well, I've always been a sort of out of the box thinker, and would constantly ponder our existence, and space and time. Well one day in one of my deep thought activity, I overthought many things about death and life and scared myself into a full blown panic attack. My heart was racing, my eyesight had floaters, and everything around me seemed like it wasn't real. I immediately called 911 and within minutes they arrived and told me I was okay and to calm down. After 10 minutes I calmed down and the ambulance left. After that my life has not been normal. I'm very scared of death, to the point in which it preoccupies my mind 24/7. I've been having constant panic attacks and now have anxiety 24/7, even whilst I'm asleep. Now I Google almost every symptom I get, and constantly read health blogs and stories. I've diagnosed myself with many things, but now it has gotten very bad. My memory seems shocked, along with my focus. I forget things easily, I forget names I used to know, places, objects, and other things. I constantly test my memory to the point where I have acquired ocd from it and I'm checking my memory every second or so. I'll forget conversations I've just had, I'll place down an object and forget where I placed it. My mind will constantly go blank, and time feels like it's passing by. I can't follow conversations anymore, or even focus on TV or other daily activities. Now, I have severe sleeping problems, I'll have a hard time falling asleep due to constant thoughts, and when I do fall asleep, I wake up soaked in sweat and tired as if I never even slept. I wake up many times a night like this and eventually have to stay up. I don't feel like eating or doing anything due to this anymore. I feel so dumb and exhausted. I feel like I'm dying. I'm now convinced I have fatal insomnia, no one in my family has it, but there is a sporadic version of it. I'm very afraid, I can't sleep well, I can't function well due to 24/7 panic, and my memory and focus is very bad. Could this all really be anxiety and depression, or is it something sinister. I can't live like this anymore.

I'm just very afraid. I haven't been at peace in a month. I haven't been able to relax or do anything peaceful what so ever. I don't even get restorive sleep due to constant awakenings during the night drenched in sweat, which fuels the anxiety even more.

i'm in a similar place right now -- everything i feel is terrifying and i wonder if i'm about to die. my cat sat on my foot today and i was sure it was because he knew i was about to die in my sleep.

my suggestion is the same as scaredy cat's; make appointments. taking action to get answers will help you feel like you have more control over your situation. your doctor will be able to tell you what's a symptom and what's just being alive and, if necessary, maybe prescribe you something to help.

at least, that's the only thing that's really brought me any kind of comfort. the ekg results, the blood tests, knowing i'm about to see a doctor and get medical attention, that i'm headed to a therapist for some coping mechanisms -- it helps. it's hopeful and that's critical.

in the meantime, if you can, try to resist googling every symptom. that would upset anyone, even without high anxiety.

Hello friend, and we do understand how you feel.
Anxiety and panic can be really tough. All of those symptoms you describe are anxiety/panic symptoms. Even though they make you feel like you are having something serious, it's not the case.

And all of the panic sufferers who own cats do feel the same way My cat rarely comes to me but when she comes I do think the same xD then again my cat goes to my husband a lot and this time I am like "hmm..." lol
what I am trying to say is, we can use any situation to feed our irrational thoughts.

Like others mentioned before, please consider treatment options and if medications are offered, give them a chance. Medication treatment got rid of my panic disorder two different times in my life. in addition to it, therapy is going to help a lot.

Feel well soon

All good advice above.
I would also suggest trying some mindful meditation for beginners . To help calm the mind and body.
But definatley go and see your GP you dont have to struggle with this alone.
This forum has lots of great peeps to talk to also so post anytime for support

Stay strong and positive you will get there.