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Posted 4/2/2017 10:13 PM (GMT 0)
I don't know how many people know what I'm talking about, I'm just venting because after having chronic depersonalisation 12 years ago I thought life would be carefree and blissful but even overcoming it didnt stop the snowball effect that has taken over my life. This is where my anxiety first started.

After being through such a horrific thing, life, spirituality etc isn't straight forward, trying to make sense of things you hear or read just leads to more problems, then leads to irrational anxiety, which I probably always had that a little, phobias perhaps which in turn creates ptsd. Unbearable feelings you'd rather leave behind. I'm sure it's the biggest mind**** you can have. I try to be grateful for feeling centred and whenever I'm going through a painful situation, feel it, go through it but life may never be the same again. Having a young child didn't help either, coz I had to focus on him, instead of sorting the mess in my head. Now I'm finding I wish I could take something to take the edge off and leave me feeling groggy!! Life is too hard, it's bs. Rant over
Posted 4/2/2017 11:33 PM (GMT 0)
We have a lot of members who struggle with D/P D/R...so know that you are not alone...

...and perhaps you can be an encouragement to someone who responds here and is currently having a difficult time with this symptom?

Peace and progress,

S.C.
Posted 4/3/2017 12:52 AM (GMT 0)
Yeah I would love to help out, I find myself avoiding the topics as I don't want any triggers. Basically whoever reads this and is struggling. How I got through it.

Accept it, accept that it may be apart of your life forever, the more you fight it, the more it will stay. Just think, if you were stuck with it forever, you just have to make do the best you can. You have to truly accept it as if you may be stuck with it forever.

Start feeling things, be aware of things around you, feel the hotness or coldness on your body whilst having a shower, can't think of anymore at the moment. The wind on your face etc

Read only positive and dp success stories, how other people overcame it.

When you get through it, you will just know. Always try and get help for any future anxiety concerns asap. It's hard to go through such a big thing and never have an anxiety problem again even if it's not dp. Good luck
Posted 4/3/2017 2:44 AM (GMT 0)
Solid advice...spot on!

Thank you so much for sharing this. I have had small bouts of D/P D/R on and off...but it just isn't a triggering symptom for me (I pretty much notice it, shrug...and it disappears), so it is hard to advise from a personal level....this will be helpful for others for sure!

S.C.
Posted 4/3/2017 8:16 AM (GMT 0)
Hi

I have had problems with D/P and D/R for a long time so I know how much they can affect your life I found the only thing that helped with this was medication are you currently taking any?

Thanks for sharing your coping strategies as SC said they are spot on.

Hibee
Posted 4/3/2017 8:40 PM (GMT 0)
When I first had it I went to a psychologist I was terrified coz I didn't know at the time what was wrong, I asked for medication, she said you're better off without it. I got better just with these stratergies, as soon as she diagnosed me it was a turning point, I can't remember the ins and outs of it as it was so long ago. I also changed and simplified my lifestyle as much as I could and that did wonders for my health. I moved out to the beach and found the calming lifestyle very therapeutic and calming.

Now I've moved to uk it is anything but therapeutic and calming! It also helped me to understand why I personally had it, in my case I was in a very high panic provoking situation that I couldn't shake it was my first ever experience with feeling panicked, instead of going that way now as I've taught myself to feel everything no matter how painful, my mind feels under alot of pressure and really fried. I'd love to be on medication now but I'm pregnant and no one will give me anything

Post Edited (AutumnEvangeline) : 4/3/2017 2:46:45 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 4/3/2017 8:49 PM (GMT 0)
These days I seem to struggle more with OCD thinking, thinking I'll get everything I read etc, obsessing if I don't understand what I've read or heard. It really just never ends
Posted 4/3/2017 9:04 PM (GMT 0)
Scaredy cat it's only a trigger for me in the sense that, if I read someone's had it and then it's come back or something then I think
Oh no what if I get it back etc, and because I might not understand their dp I just assume it's like what I had which was severe 24/7 it's just part of my OCD irrational thinking I guess. Which is why I have avoided the topic for so long, the less I look into something, the less chance I have of developing that way of thinking. Best just to be avoided since this has given me problems in the past.

Scaredy cat, I assume you've never had dp to the degree of it being chronic and constant for a significant amount of time? I sometimes hear people say, they feel numb because they're in shock or it's situational and I do get it, but it's just weird coming from the angle I have. It's certainly nice to be able to feel
Everything but not to this extent!! I want to hurry up and give birth so I can take something!! To "numb" things down just a notch!!'

Post Edited (AutumnEvangeline) : 4/3/2017 3:12:34 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 4/3/2017 9:41 PM (GMT 0)
Right...

I have had just small, temporary bouts with it.

I believe it is due to the fact that my anxiety is almost exclusively health related.

I believe the D/P D/R falls more into the category of worrying about one's mental health.

I have read that the two main concerns of anxiety can be broken down to fear of losing one's health, or fear of losing one's mind...

...and since I am wired up towards the former, this just isn't my trigger...

...I do however understand and respect the struggle of other's who experience it!

Peace and progress,

S.C.
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