Going crazy about the thought of leaukemia

Hello everyone I'm new to this site.

As the title says it's driving me crazy and I can't stop worrying a week ago I found a what I think is a hard lymph mode below my ear side of jaw and I really have to press in to feel it and it does take me a while to find it. So that's my first worry, secondly I woke up the other day with a nosebleed and later on I woke up in the middle of the night with one, my girlfriends in the middle of getting a loft conversion in and I keep
Telling myself maybe it was the dust that caused it? My anxiety is getting worse though. But I had several blood test last year full blood counts the lot my last one was december. And nothing was found is that the main diagnosis for this illness that I'm worrying about? Appreciate any response thanks

Hey Kierang18,

Knowing that you're anxious about it, go see your GP, and ask questions. Ask for tests, and ask about what the results mean. Then, once serious illness has been ruled out, do your best to accept that it's anxiety, and find anxiety coping strategies that work for you to help reduce your day to day anxiety, and the pattern of negative, obsessive, thoughts. Most importantly, stay off of Google, and don't try to self diagnose yourself. No matter how rational of a person you are, Google can lead to some twisted thoughts, and misdiagnosed illnesses. And from my experience, just recently, once your mind sees a potential illness, and the accompanied symptoms, you can panic your way into feeling those symptoms, leading to more anxiety.

I've dreamt up some pretty awful conditions that I thought I had, and it was almost always a byproduct of things that I read on the internet. The only way I've gotten over obsessing over them is by demanding tests, being persistent with my doctor, and then, whether I like it or not, accepting that my thoughts are distorted by my anxiety.

It sounds like you've had some tests already, but never hesitate to schedule a follow up appointment to ask questions, and put your mind at ease. Sometimes it's better to be an obsessive patient, and to get firm answers, than to let such thoughts fester in your mind. For what it's worth though, swollen lymph nodes and a bloody noses can have many causes, most of which are far less significant than cancer.

Wishing you the best

Here you go, I pulled them up for you.


Health Anxiety - A Self Help Guide:

www.nhs.uk/conditions/hypochondria/pages/introduction.aspx


Self Help For Health Anxiety

www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/resources/infopax.cfm?Info_id=53

www.getselfhelp.co.uk/healthanxiety.htm


Health Anxiety- The Super Scanner[/color]

www.get.gg/docs/SuperScanner.pdf


Books

www.amazon.com/Overcoming-Health-Anxiety-David-Veale/dp/1845298241

www.amazon.com/Treating-Health-Anxiety-Cognitive-Behavioral-Approach/dp/1572309989

Indeed, I do. GAD, Social Anxiety, and Panic Disorder. I've struggled with panic attacks recently, after a few great years. But only because I stopped putting effort into consciously reducing my anxiety a year or so into feeling better, as it didn't seem as urgent/necessary. That was a mistake.

At my worst, a combination of exercise, yoga, meditation, and positive thinking helped me manage, and greatly reduce, my anxiety. The books I read around that time, as suggested by my GP, were "Hardwiring Happiness," by Rick Hansen, Phd, and "Wherever you go, there you are," by Jon Kabat-Zinn, Phd. I also watched a lot of videos online, by Jon, Thich Nhat Hanh, and others.

For me, understanding anxiety, the brain, and the ways in which I could help myself lead me to a variety of practices that, over time, helped me feel better, and worry far less.

Thanks for the reply Hibee I'm going to schedule a appointment soon and basically fell him what I've old you guys and how I google everything, see what he says. Thanks again