Need some advice or input here....having a hard time coping

So my doctor of 15 years retired.. this new doctor took allmy meds from me. My remeron (anti depressant) my Xanax , everything for my anxiety depression panic disorder ptsd, etc. so I am seeing a new doctor on the 12th and my in home nurse is coming with me to be my .. whatever you wanna call it... support.. help.. well I only have 11 more of my Xanax left.. exactly enough to last me until that date. Ironic, I know!.. they are cutting everyone from their meds apparently it's gotten bad with people abusing and selling their meds and they don't want to prescribe them anymore. Pain meds anxiety meds etc. well every morning I wake up and take a Xanax because I am shaking can't breathe trembling heart palpitations / flutters heart races as soon as I get up .. I've tried many many times to not take it and it's been HELL! I have 4 kids and two are babies that need my 24/7 attention. I can't function in the state I'm in without my meds. I've been on these meds for years. I have 5,10 panic attacks a day.. I can't eat.. I can't drive.. go in public.. i NEED my meds. No question about it. I have multiple mental health disorders. Now what happens when I run out am I going to die from these symptoms!? I've heard of people dying. What do I do? When I can't function? Go to the hospital or what? I can't even move. Remember I have 4 kids and 2 babies and this new doctor just up and took my meds that I need to FUNCTION. What the heck am I supposed to do if this new doctor doesn't help!? I'm going to be in a mental hospital! I can't take this and these thoughts. I'm going to lose my mind

Hi LMA,

Try not to get ahead of yourself and become distraught before your appointment.

This new doctor may see very clearly what you need in order to manage your challenges, so have hope.

You are takimg a strong advocate for yourself, so well done on getting your nurse on board!

In addition...gather as much of your records notes, ect. that pertain to your disorder...so you have a good amount if material to present at your consult.

Use positive mantras coping skills to get you through the waiting.

We are sending support and good wishes, so keep is updated!

S.C.