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Posted 7/11/2017 6:35 PM (GMT 0)
I am now a tenth grader. In the ninth grade, I got bullied every single day. People would call me a retard, ugly, weird, autistic, that it looked like I had down's syndrome, and various other things. I learned to hate myself everyday because of it. School is coming in about a month, but I can't stop thinking about it. I want to go, but I dont. My parents said I should be homeschooled, but I dont want to be homeschooled. (I dont really know what i want at all... Im too indecisive at times) I just dont want to be bullied anymore. I want to be treated like I'm normal...

Anyway, I had an idea. Im going to buy a doll from Amazon.com named Ricca Chan. She's popular in Japan. I have been watching this TV show called Rugrats lately. There's a girl named Angelica and she talks to this doll named Cythia. So, I came up with the idea of talking to Ricca Chan. I know I'm not going to have anyone talk to me and have people laugh at me for being me (with or without a toy), so I need someone who is loyal and will never hate me. I'll pull her out when the time is right and talk and play to her. This will (or I hope it will) help me with feeling like a complete outcast and lonely. What do you think of this? Is it too childish, depressing, or just plain stupid?
Posted 7/11/2017 6:42 PM (GMT 0)
Pepeloviabanistenian, I'm so sorry that you're being treated like that. NOBODY should be spoken to the way kids at school speak to you, and by the way you write and explain how you feel in your post, I know you are smart and caring and show so much perseverance. I think you should suggest that you and your parents all sit down and speak with a therapist or counselor. It sounds like you are all at a loss for how to handle this, and the assistance of a third party could really bring some clarity to what's best for you. Best of luck and stay strong--high school is not forever!
Posted 7/11/2017 7:05 PM (GMT 0)
Thank you so much for your reply! I see a therapist, but I'll try to work everything out
Posted 7/11/2017 7:11 PM (GMT 0)
Hello dear and welcome.

I too am sorry to hear of the harsh words and treatment you have endured by your peers. By peers I simply mean people your own age...not your equals...because you are head and shoulders above them in terms of behavior.❤

I agree with member ddss in regards to seeking a therapist/guidance counselor for helping you to navigate the next school without being bullied. I am not sure where you live...but in my area there is a ZERO tolerance for this behavior.

However, you will have to advocate for yourself and let it be known to your school's administrative staff, exactly what is going on.

The idea of a doll is not a bad one per say...it is similar to journaling...an outlet for your feelings...

...however, I also think that talking with a friend(s) is a healthy practice as well. If you are having trouble making friends, joining a club, class, or volunteering is a great way to get started.

Finally, this link might be something that could really benefit you. It is a great way to learn more about yourself...and how to manage your feelings. Give it a try. 😊

/moodgym.com.au/

Post with us anytime for support and encouragement. We care and will be here to listen!

Scaredy Cat
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