Hi All,
I visited my family in Minnesota this past weekend and it was really great to get out of town and away from the hustle and bustle of the city. I even somehow managed to keep my panic in check on the airplane ride when the pilot light for the engine died and needed to be re-lit just before takeoff. The old me would have marched off the plane in cold sweats and have gone straight home!
Anxiety was somewhat in check while I was there- a few shaky moments, but for the most part, really enjoyable. We did experience severe lack of sleep and rest while there because of the time difference and the fact that my family likes to wake up at the crack of dawn anyway, so while we were up at 6:30 every morning, it was really 4:30 for us. I think we averaged maybe 5-6 hours per night which is a huge trigger for my anxiety. Rest is crucial.
I'm so happy to be home but for some reason just have the jitters. I'm not sure if my body is just playing catch up from lack of sleep and adequate rest, or maybe the plethora of consumed dairy (I have IBS/lactose intolerance), but I feel like I was hit by a train. Brain fog, fatigue, and just a general "out of it" feeling. I also woke up this morning after somehow maneuvering my body into a pretzel with my neck kinked to accommodate my dogs (what are moms for), and I woke up and felt dizzy. I think it was because of my prolonged positioning of being somewhat upside down, and then getting up too fast. It only lasted a minute but it was an annoying minute and a discouraging minute, that's for sure. I feel like I've hit a huge setback with my progress, but try my best to remind myself that I am still weaning off of my Zoloft and my body will need time to adjust. It's just frustrating
