Just looking for some support..

Megan,

I am glad you have reached out and been carving time out for yourself when you can...that is so important.

You are dealing with such a spectrum of emotions right now...I can't even begin to imagine...or list them. You might not even be fully aware of all that you are feeling...so keep up with your journaling, as this can help bring things to the surface that need to be vented.

The forum has been pretty slow lately. We are in the process of making some updates which will probably help things pick up a bit again...but for now, if you don't get a ton of responses, know that this is just the going pace for now.

However, we are all thinking and praying for you both at this time. Specifically, I pray for comfort for B...and for anxiety management for you.

I hope your appointment brings about some good things and a plan that will help. Let us know how it goes.

(((((Hugs my friend))))))

S.C.

Awww...I'm sorry...but don't internalize it. I notice that most of the time people respond the most on the threads that ask a question...one that is easy to give b/c there's no emotional requirement.

It's harder to offer support for some people..b/c they don't know what to say...or think they'll say the wrong thing.

Keep checking back and give people a chance...as some only come on every couple of days or less!

((((❤))))

S.C.

Megan

I'm so sorry to hear this news my thoughts are with you and your partner keep us posted we are here for you.

Hugs

Hibee

Hi Meg
Wish i can drive there as i cant fly to assist and keep u company prayers to hubby..you are stronger than you think ..keep on keeping on u are a fantastic mom and wife May God keep you stron g and calm my friend ...lovies and hugs ❤❤❤❤

Thank you all for the support! I don't think you ever get used to this..one day you are travelling along in life and the next...bam...you are slapped in the face with such a devastating diagnosis! Trying to come to grips with ones mortality is hard.
No day is "normal" anymore...we just slide through barely! Having trouble with one thing or another daily.
Anyway thanks for responding. I can't wait for my appointment..I have never looked forward to a doc appointment ever but need some relief asap.
Pet- scans and MRI on Monday so There's more anxiety while we wait on results.
I just feel like screaming sometimes.

Megan,

I agree with SC, in that this stuff isn't meant to be kept inside. Let it out however you can. If you struggle with finding what exactly to write about, I find these prompts help me. They challenge you to see the glass half full, even the midst of such a glass half empty situation...

1. Name 3 things you're grateful for
2. How do I want to feel today? (Name 3, example: calm, productive, rested)
3. What will I do to feel the way I want to feel? (Name 3)
4. Daily affirmation for yourself (Ex: I am safe, and loved.)
5. Other Things On My mind

I am hoping your appointment goes well, and let us know how it goes. We are here for you at any hours!

@anxious Texan- I could not agree more. Its a very helpless feeling to watch someone you love so much struggle through what ultimately will be the hardest days of their lives.
I'm going to seek out some type of talk therapy. I know its out there..I just work so much it feels impossible.
Probably a sleepless night tonight as tomorrow morning she has pet-scan, brain MRI and then an oncology appointment. I think I weird out more than she does over these appointments. I guess I just want so much for it to be gone where she has accepted the fact its not going awat.
Right now I just want her to make it through the holidays and be as happy as she can be. She has already told me she can't do "this" much longer...😢

Megan,

Let us know how all of the appointments go for your partner. We will keep her and you in our prayers.

I'm sorry.