Is anyone else expeniencing higher then normal anxiety as the year comes to a end?

Hi everyone
I’m new but have already introduced myself in the bipolar forum so not sure I need to again.
I seem to be experiencing higher then my normal level of anxiety it kinda off the charts to where my heart rate is in the 140s and has had issue with my bp bottoming out. I lost my dad to brain cancer on October 4th and the holidays were different and weird however my anxiety only went a tiny bit that as much as I noticed.

I will say that bc of my mental illnesses I have over a yr of therapy with my therapist to prepare for losing my dad so I did not grieve bc I knew he was in a better place , not suffering, and that he would not me to grieve but to find peace. However now as the yr is ending I’m finding that my anxiety is really up there and I’m pretty sure that it’s bc my daily life has changed so much since my loss. My dad was my everything and I was daddy’s little girl. Every day we talked up 3 times a day and saw each other 1-3 times a day too. I also took him to radiation and chemo which made me face my social anxiety with agoraphobia. Which I have revert backwards. Thanks for listening to me rant on. Is anyone have increase anxiety as the yr had come a end? And how is it effecting you?


Sunflower98🌻

Sunflower,

First of all, I am so sorry for your loss. I can imagine what a challenge the latter part of this year has been for you. Even though you may not have gone through what might be considered the text book grieving...for lack of a better term...you certainly have had a loss that is of course affecting you!

I think the holidays are hard because of what society tells us we should be feeling...and the expectation just doesn't always match the reality.

Maybe we are not necessarily blowing our noisemakers, feeling the revelry and anticipating the ball drop/a kiss at midnight...

...maybe we are dealing with deeper things, and that is okay.

Be patient with yourself and the process of healing. Practice your self care, and know that slowly but surely things are going to be better.

Take it easy, spend some time on reflecting, but also looking forward towards progress...and know that you are just where you need to be at this time.

Say a cheers to your dad, who is surely looking down at you with pride...and have a peaceful NYE.

(((Hugs)))

S.C.

You asked had anyone experienced more stress, panic attacks.

I am new here.

I said I have experienced that. And I didn't mention but I lost my Mother and Father, and moved and lost lots of things dear to me. The rest was mostly broken and of no use. I wish we hadn't moved. I have been sick since we got here and need surgery within a couple of weeks at a hospital 18 hours from here. Talk about panic attacks.

Was I rude? I didn't mean to be. Please teach me how to answer correctly. I must have come across rude and mean. I think I should just go away. sorry.

I just can't win for losing.

No, you weren't rude.

I just shouldn't have tried to add something.
Sorry.

Hi 1nana and welcome!

I too am sorry to hear of your loss and struggles. However I am so glad that you've joined us so that you can participate in the sharing here with us.☺

Please do make an introduction post of your own if you feel comfortable doing so...so we can better welcome and support you!

Talk soon,

S.C.

Wow, I thought I was the only one! I have been having great anxiety lately. My grandmother died on November 24. She was not a nice lady although we did have some sort of half-assed relationship. All the things from my lousy childhood came back after she died and it sent me into an obsessive tailspin. Not only that, around the same time I told my doctor I wanted to go off my Celexa because I didn't feel it was working anymore and I wanted to feel better and be less irritable and *****y. Well she weaned me off that and then let me start a new med and it had been total HELL for me with that mess. I've already got anxiety and depression and yet on top of that, my dad has to go in for scans because he has advanced prostate cancer and I'm scared it went to his bones. So yes, anxiety and depression have been very hard on me lately. Every morning when I wake up, my mind tries to lead me to something that I need to worry about. I had to tape a sign to the wall that shows me good things I can think about and I have to carry a list in my pocket about reasons why I shouldn't obsess and worry about my dad all day long.
It seems to me that right after September every year, I seem to crash down for some reason. The thing is, fall is my favorite season. Why I always feel like I'm losing control is beyond me. I don't think I have SAD. (the seasonal disorder) I don't even like the summer and I'm glad to see it go. I hate the heat.

Actually I read somewhere us anxious people don't deal so well in season change due to drop or rise of temperature something about pressure / altitude and obv lack of sun or it's just odd.

LII,

You have a lot going on atm!!

If you re-read your posts you may see what we do...and that is that all of these things combined add up to stress/worry/ fatigue. Sometimes it is the accumulation of several things that causes us to have a set back due to situational anxiety/depression.

However, you are working on your management/recovery...so know that with time and continued efforts...you are going to get through this challenging time.

We are cheering you on, so do keep us updated...we'll be here!

(((HUGS)))

S.C.