Encouragement needed. Lexapro 20 mg starting 3rd week

Hi guys. I'm new here. A short back story...i was on Lexapro for about 7 months (got up to 30 mg) when I decided I wanted to try Prozac. So I had to taper down and then taper up. My panic got really out of control, so my pdoc switched me back to Lexapro. I tapered up from 10 to 15 to 20 mg. Now I am about to start my 3rd week on 20mg. This time getting back on was hell! I have gradually had to work my way up to 4 mg of Xanax just to cope! Of course I hate this, but my doc assures me I can taper off and be fine once the Lexapro kicks in. I just get so hopeless and scared that this won't work this time. My husband works long hours and I am alone a lot, which just gives me more Tim to freak out. I know no one can give me a for sure answer, but can I get some love and encouragement please? Am I close to seeing at least some improvement? Only positives please as I freak myself out plenty on my own. Thanks for any help, tips...anything?

Hello over thinker… First of all let me say that you stole my screen name, because you're not the only one that does that. I believe most of us on here are guilty of overthinking everything so don't beat yourself up about that because I think it goes right along with the illness we share. I'm sure you will get your meds worked out to your satisfaction but I have heard that it's a process that takes a while when your tapering on and off different meds . I wish I had a magic wand and could make it all happen for you right now but since I can't do that I will at least tell you that I've seen it work for other Friends of mine who had to go through the same process. I am not currently on an antidepressant but I am heading to a new therapist this week and I'm sure will want to put me on them . A couple of my friends have suggested that Zoloft would be best for me since it's supposedly also helps with anxiety which is always been my major problem. But I am like you , Wondering if they'll get the dosage right and if I will freak out while trying to adjust blah blah blah and that's the overthink or in me too. Sometimes just just being able to post on this site makes one feel better, even if temporarily. So you should always come here when you're feeling this way because we all understand and want to help you through it.

Thanks for your replies. I do have too much free time, and I try to stay busy, usually talking to my mom. But I also lack concentration and I get really sleepy on the Xanax but can't nap. I guess I'm just whining because I want this over with so badly. I am frustrated and bored!