I don't know which is worse… My anxiety and my depression

I a almost don't know which site to post on these days… Anxiety or depression. It seems like both have a hold over me right now. I was diagnosed years ago with anxious depression so I guess that answers my own question, they apparently go hand-in-hand. I work very hard at talking myself out of both and succeed for a few minutes but then the anxiety and depression just well up inside of me again. I know a lot of it has to do with all the upcoming medical tests I have to go through and the fact that I'm convinced , As usual, that I'm dying of some deadly form of cancer. But as I've posted many times before I have thought that for many years, as healthy anxiety is my worst problem. I guess I'm just looking for some support and encouragement at the moment because being alone like I am these days makes things even harder. The other thing I want to ask about is whether or not you experience a lot of confusion and forgetfulness when you're going through heavy anxiety.'s. It certainly is the case with me I notice. I'm always forgetting where I put my keys dow or did I remember to lock the door blah blah blah. It just seems when my mind is filled with anxiety there's no room for anything else. and of course my stomach acts up even more when I'm feeling like this so it's hard to know whether it's something real or imagined. Basically, as you can tell, I'm just a mess right now and I always find some comfort in this great support group.

andwes,

Definitely. Part of me feels the forums should be combined. There's a also a bipolar forum. It gets a little confusing.

I have never heard of an anxious depression diagnosis. That sounds pretty descriptive of me!

Yes! I have a few fleeting moments of hope, happiness, and the like. Soon, very soon, thereafter, I "come back to Earth". It. Is. So. Frustrating.

In regard to your upcoming tests, I recently did some research regarding the mind-body connection and it makes a lot of sense. I have also learned our minds create the worst possible scenario, especially in situations like this. In our minds, we create things to fear which typically aren't even feasible and they're unlikely to happen. Remember: only you can control you and only you can control how you react to internal and external stimuli. You are being proactive about your health. Pat yourself on the back for that.

While I've never associated the two (but it makes sense to do so), I get quite forgetful. In the mornings, my OCD kicks into high gear. "Is the stove turned off?" "Did I lock the door?" "Did I unplug that?" I only have one car key left, so when I go to lock the car door, the key has to be in my hand and I have to see it. I can't put it in my pocket yet.

With your stomach, you can consult the mind-body connection. My mother, whom I feel has everything pretty well together, gets an upset stomach when she's anxious. That's normal.

I understand it's easy for me to sit here and spout these things, but I preach better than I practice. I've gone through every single thing you have mentioned and still struggle to get a grasp on myself. It's hard work, but if you can overcome, it's well worth it I'm sure.

Best,
John

they go together you cant separate the two.. this last go around I tried to convince my self it was just anxiety. it wasn't till I went back on an ssri that I got relief.

I survived kidney stone surgery and prostate cancer last year. you can get tru this . if you need sugery -just think how bad things will be if you dontn have it. think of it this way at least get tests done to rule out illness other wise anxiety may fester