What Just Happened???

So....stomach issues have been pretty much normal the last several days. Eating fine, keeping anxiety to a low roar.
Then, I had to schedule my colonoscopy which I'm dreading...the prep part that is. AND my boss asked me to go to Portland, OR (a 2 hour drive) with my team for a meeting the week of July 23rd. It's only 2 days and I HATE going to the Portland office. I'm also petrified of having this anxiety and stomach stuff amp up and being in a position of not being able to get away or calm down. We're talking our director, asst director, all the managers and a retirement celebration for one of them that's retiring. I'm beside myself. After doing so much better the last few days, I just had an anxiety attack after all that.

Nobody I work with is aware of my anxiety issues and I want to keep it that way. This meeting is in two weeks and colonoscopy in 3. DON'T WANT TO DO EITHER and in a panic thinking about it.

MSP,

You have had a lot going on recently...and so management is challenging right now, understandably.

If your colonoscopy could be put off for a bit...why not give yourself a little time between your business trip and the procedure?

It could be just enough off of your immediate list of things that are causing your stress...to allow you better managment in the areas that need the most attention at this time.

Something to consider...

...and of course continue your self help to fee your best possible...and keep posting for encouragement!

(((Hugs)))

S.C.

Thanks everyone. The caring and support here are awesome.
Bor...Thanks for sharing your experience. When I talked to the girl to schedule yesterday, I was glad that they can do it at the clinic right by my house. She also said that when the nurse calls me closer to the date with further instructions, I can request a different prep. A co-worker just had one and said his was like koolaid and nothing like the old stuff that used to be required. With the stomach stuff I've had, that was why I got so uptight about it.

S.C. You're so right...I've had a lot going on for the last 4 - 5 months. My boyfriend and I were just talking last night again about how many weeks on end we've been going hard not just on weekends, but after work too. and decided to just back it on down a bit. He's worried about the stomach issues I've had and doing everything he can to make things easier on me. He's an absolute sweetheart. This week we've come home and just relaxed. The anxiety that started three weeks or so ago is really the most intense that I've experienced in a long time and just came out of nowhere. I don't expect it to go subside overnight but feeling it day after day is exhausting and I just want to feel like me again.

Minnesota, I know you're right. As you know, the anticipation can really get to you if you let it.