Health Anxiety Again

This past weekend, we spent a lot of time working in the yard and around the house getting things wrapped up for fall/winter. Monday I had a bit of anxiety going on anticipating my boss coming in to the office (he's based in another city) on Tuesday. Yesterday rolled around and I woke up feeling fine and was super busy and made it through the day fine. Then an hour or so before I left, my stomach starting churning, I got a bit light headed (it was a tense busy day) and my mouth, jaw and ear were hurting from the teeth grinding and clenching. I got home last night and wasn't feel good, but not bad either. This morning, I woke up and immediately started "scanning" my body and how I felt and remembered the night before. Almost immediately, the mouth pain and skipped beats started again. Face keeps feeling itchy too. All day today at work I've been tuned in to this feeling while trying to ignore it and keep going at the same time. My boyfriend and I are coming up on our first anniversary and want to plan something special. I'm scared to death I won't be around

Post Edited (mysweetpanda) : 10/3/2018 4:52:37 PM (GMT-6)

Our anniversary is November 9th. We're going to do something special but not sure what yet. He's an amazing, loving, very caring man and though I tell him that and thank him for the things he does all the time, I want this to be special and anxiety to be no part of it.

Post Edited (mysweetpanda) : 10/4/2018 2:31:27 PM (GMT-6)

Thanks everyone. This week has been very stressful at work and with a family situation going on. Just when I think I couldn't feel any worse, I do and I'm just exhausted physically and mentally. It's one of those days I just want to cry and go to sleep so I don't feel this. The facial pains, twinges of pain in my arms, lightheadedness, and randomly getting feelings of my stomach being knotted up are more than I can handle today. Muscle tension is painful and I find myself shallow breathing. Tears are flowing ; (

Hello! I'm so sorry to hear that you are afraid of dying and chest pains. Last year during Christmas I had a random though that I would die in my sleep. I used to stay up so late. Then when this summer began and school let out, I was going on a three week trip to California. I had so much chest pain and palpitations that I thought for sure that I would have a cardiac arrest (luckily it was just from a cold). But as soon as I went on vacation, my worry was gone. I know how hard it is to live with anxiety, I've had it for 5 years. From fear of throwing up that caused me to practically starve myself for 2 years to countless sleepless nights huddled in fear. Im still dealing with it and have had 7 panic attacks between these last two days because of a dream. I know how it feels for people to tell you to forget about it. I hate it. So instead of telling you to let it go, just keep yourself busy. Make millions of friendship bracelets, teach yourself to knit, volunteer at a humane society. Make it so you head has no time to think about fear. One thing I would recommend for your anniversary is to go to an amusement park, if you guys enjoy that stuff. Trust me, the only thing you'll worry about is if you get to keep riding the roller coasters. If that not your thing, maybe hike to waterfall and have a picnic. Take many beautiful pictures and try to identify all of the wildflowers. I will he praying for you. May God bless you and protect and give you strength.