Blocking out/forgetting feelings

Does anyone else do this? I find it to be a difficult aspect with therapy. I will have several bad weeks and then one good week- go to a psychiatrist once a month and say things are relatively fine, clam up to some extent and vaguely gloss over things, walk out and remember all the issues that I should have mentioned and then anxiously overthink what I should have said. I’m working on stopping the overthinking this time and considering journaling or something to try to keep a record so I’m not forced to try to remember things for the next time. My question is though when dealing with anxiety and depression is it better to forget things or should I be remembering them? So far I feel like remembering tends to draw me back to the bad emotions and yet forgetting them tends to cause them to sneak up on me the next time around.

I agree to try to remove memories but it’s easier said than done. I’ve written things but alot were like huge essays so I know every detail. I’ve read online that work for a lot of people but not me. so it might be great for you. I was advised to do some online memory activities and hopefully it will help.
Take care!

I don't go to therapy but I do find that I do not dwell on negatives and although that sounds like a good thing- I think I then don't understand why I feel so upset or in my physical condition of RA do not get support from my rheumatologist because I don't report the days I've been ill