I hate health anxiety... just a rant

I literally do hate it.
Nothing, yes, nothing can be worse than this.
Not knowing if the symptoms we are experiencing are real or not, and the worse part is they feel so real. You are torn between knowing(!) that they are caused by anxiety and the possibility of them being really caused by an existing condition.

Since this virus crisis started, I have been feeling many of the symptoms - even the shortness of breath for real. Just when I say "oh finally I am at peace now, the symptom is over, I am free..." BAM, a new one begins the next day.
I am so freaking tired of it, almost thinking -Oh I be sick now and I don't care anymore, if its gonna help with the anxiety...
I mean I have been through a lot in my life and I managed to overcome tough stuff, but this? It's so annoying.
I recovered from Panic Disorder, punched it in the face twice. I do lots of self help but I can't do anything to help HA.
Tsk...

Hang in there all, I know you also go through the same thing I am most of the time. I hope we all overcome this sometime soon.
Take care, be safe, follow rules, wash hands, etc <3

Thanks a lot for tips dear HT.
Trying to cope really but getting harder with all of those horrible news everyday.

Also since I get social help I have to go to a company everyday to do practice training until I find a job (I live in Sweden). I am not in any risk group so I am not allowed to isolate myself as I want. Then I won't get paid, the social security helps me because of this practice training. So staying at home and avoiding this sh@t is not an option for me.

I have been having shortness of breath on and off since last week (two days symptom free) and I know it's mostly hyperventilation. But making me scared because since last week I am noticing slight SOB when I walk short distances, especially if I am carrying things. And I am just 44 and not too inactive to be honest.
Of course my brain is listing down all of the possible fatal+terminal causes of it.

Soo, feels extra bad having HA during a pandemic, right?

I can relate HA really sucks! I have been home but mu husband goes out to work so I get really anxious about that. I disinfect him when he gets home.

I am the same, so aware of every little sensation. It is exhausting!

I just wanted to say I think you are all wonderful. I got Lyme when I was 20 years old. In my 60's now. No one knew what it was back then. I had panic/anxiety attacks the likes of which I hope none of you ever experience. No one could find anything wrong. No mental issues, no physical issues...You all know the story. But you guys found a way to persevere. Your all wonderful! I love the fact you are also not afraid to talk about it. Your all inspirations to me.

Thanks Tim Tam. I know that I found just reading all your posts made me feel better. I have lived with my health anxiety all my life. Its not easy, as all of you know. I meditate and occasionally have a couple of glasses of wine to make things appear better. Rrakkma, I know how you feel, as a severely immune compromised person, I feel your pain. I look at the news only 10 minutes a day, can't even watch TV, but love to read and walk so I try and do that. I wish all of you the very best.

Awesome sharing. HT