Fear of dying

Hi again, so I don’t understand why this fear causes my hands sweat and my heart to race. I started citalopram 7 weeks ago and I was feeling fine but this week I started feeling so anxious due to bad news in my family on top of it my hormones...horrible feelings, I spoke to my therapist and explained that I couldn’t even cried because I was so afraid of being depressed, afraid of harming myself like why do I think that what if I die? I don’t want to leave my family you know...I don’t understand my anxiety root. Planning to go back to the dr on Monday and keeping up doing calming exercises. Has anybody experience these fears? My therapist thought I was depressed but I told her I’m just afraid and if that thought comes to mind I start feeling my adrenaline rush. I have experience all of this before but why will I feel good and then bad again??

Thank you Karen, yes I will
Go on Monday, meanwhile I am doing exercises and I’m reminding myself that thoughts are just that. And it works to actually spend time with my family and enjoy them

I don't think I am so afraid of death itself, but the process. I hope when I go, I go quick.

I think it is whether or not there is anything afterwards that freaks me out.

Hugs, Karen...

It sounds like an intrusive thought....remember, it’s just a thought. Try not to let it worry you, it’s just a thought and not what you really want to happen. And yes, talk to the doctor and therapist.

Welcome to my life!
I can’t even come close to telling you crippling, terrifying, overwhelming bouts of anxiety, depression, and manic episodes I’ve had in the last 14 years. I am too struggling day to day, minute to minute with the fear of dying. I agree with Karen, I’m not afraid of actual death. It’s the PROCESS of dying. Heart attacks and strokes are my main fears. The fact that you KNOW you’re dying or think you’re dying is the issue with me. Like what happens when you’re seconds from death? Does it hurt? Are you aware that you’re dying ? What’s after death? These are all obsessive and intrusive thoughts. Some may call them irrational, I call them human curiosity. Some may think these thoughts once or twice in their lifetime and never really bother with them again. And then there’s us, we all have our own “type and triggers” of anxiety.
I find my anxiety to be a blessing and a curse. It helps me to stay on the right track in life. But it’s also very overwhelming