Trouble with food

Back when I was in the throes of severe anxiety, I also felt scared because I was too nervous to eat and felt that because of not eating well, I could get sick and, maybe die (like the anorexics do). What I began to do was keep a food diary. It helped because I could look back and see that I was indeed trying the best I could to get healthy food into me. Foods like pieces of fruit, vegetables, yogurt, oatmeal, rice, clear or cream soups - it was never a great amount, but I forced myself, and found that if I could distract myself enough, it would go down. I would eat slowly, sometimes watching TV, or just talking to my husband, etc. What helped a lot was looking back to the day before and telling myself what a good job I did (it's important to praise yourself!) And of course, you need to keep hydrated with at least water. Sometimes carbonated (seltzer) water went down best.
Keep us posted on how you're doing, okay? I so know how hard it can be.

I like the food diary idea too, thanks Topo. I am not good about praising myself. I just feel frustrated with myself and afraid my anxiety will stay high for a long time. I guess I can try that...for a while I was trying to think of things I enjoyed each day before I fell asleep, but between not feeling well and the pandemic, lots of days I enjoyed absolutely nothing. Maybe I should try thinking of the hard things I did that day and how I didn’t give in to the anxiety???

I do drink a carnation instant breakfast if i can’t eat at all, but I try to avoid that due to lots of sugar (not good for my RA inflammation) and also because I have a teenage daughter. I want to model good eating for her too. That’s part of the pressure, I so want to be healthy for myself and her.

Thanks for answering, I feel very alone right now.

Thank you catkins, yes I am walking, and I could try some smoothies. Thanks for listening!