Mornings..ick!

When anxiety is at its worst for me..I detest mornings!

Here's how it is for me sometimes lol. (I am shakin my head in disbelief that the mind can do this to u sometimes!)

I lay in bed and listen to the birds chirping and am at peace...then reality kicks in - the clock radio bursts into life..uggh..another day at the 'saltmine' (already a negative thought grrr)..

Struggle out of bed..rip into the shower...gulp down some brekky coz I know I should (good grief I am a grumpy old bat! lol)..jump in the car and off down the driveway...sheesh no wonder I have a bad day!

But wait, it gets better lol...I work with someone who sometimes arrives on her 'broomstick' and  on other days arrives in her 'charriot' and couldn't be nicer.

On my way to work I do all the breathing exercises and the positive talk possible..

I get to work and scan the carpark...yup her car is already here..drat!

Oh well...deep breathing Maree..I get out of the car with 'lead' feet and shakey knees...and off I go!

Thank goodness it's not like this everyday! And now I have written it all down I am going to have a change in morning strategy..I dunno what it's gonna be yet..but I'm thinking lol.

How are mornings for you?

  

Hello everyone! Mornings arent really that bad for me exect recently I have been waking up feeling a little jittery and I really hate that feeling, I feel like my mind wants to relax, but my blood is dancing around in my body or something. I really hate anxiety, and I hate the feeling of doom, but I really dont know how to get it out of my head..

Well twiggygal...got to work today and actually was feeling good, no uptight feelings, just decided that I have had enough of her mood swings really..anyhow, as predicted she arrived on her broomstick - but alas for her I was not buying into all that nonsense today...by lunchtime she had decided to chill out a little, which was good. I invited her to come over and sit with the others - she snapped in reply that she preferred her own company, and that's what she got. The rest of the day went ok..a little quiet at times..but for once I felt in control of the situation..wow!

Tomorrow is another day however..lol...will keep you posted. Thanx for everyones imput.

Maree

That is so great Maree. I hope you enjoy your new workmate. Glad witchypoo has flown on out!

Hi scaredycat, these boards are like a lifeline for me alot of times. Until I get up the guts to "really" talk with my husband, this is where I get my main support. I'm doing ok this morning, made my honey a good breakfast and even enjoyed it myself. Just trying to hang on to the good thoughts.

He knows, to a point. He is a wonderful man and he already has so much on his plate, he doesn't need my stuff piling it up more. He knows about the depression, he's the one who made me go to the doc, he knows a bit about the anxiety too. He doesn't know how deep it runs. I really don't know when to talk to him either, should I talk when I'm feeling better and more together, or should I do it when everythings is hitting and know exactly to tell him what I'm feeling right then.

I had the same reaction when I went back on the lexapro, being more jittery, I am going on 3 weeks myself and am wondering the same thing, seems a little better now but, I have some really bad days in there, just don't know if it is leveling, I actually dropped my dosage after 2 weeks because of it and now am back up to the 10 again after 5 days of dropping the dosage, the first 2 weeks were just awful but I am a little more calm now, not 100 percent but better so hopefully after a little while it will get better otherwise they are going to try zoloft, but hte lexapro worked great last time, I am just impatient I think, I want to be good now.

Hey scardeycat - Well this is how it all transpired....and this is how it ALWAYS goes for me. I had a terrible last six weeks  or so...my unemployment ran out, my car broke down so I couldn't job hunt and I was basically stranded (I live out in the country) fora month until my unemployment kicked in again.   During all that time I wasn't taking the Celexa because I basically couldn't afford it.  I was stressed to the max but wasn't experiencing what I consider "anxiety" feelings.  Once everything straightened out,  the car was fixed, the checks started coming in again, and I even landed a great temp-to-hire position....THAT'S when I fell apart and started having horrible anxiety again.....almost like Post Traumatic Syndrome or something.  I seem to always manage to get through these awful situations butonce they're resolved, I fall apart.  So I started  on the Celexa again and I swear I felt worse, more jittery, more anxious than before, etc.  I wasn't sure if it was caused by the meds, as they say it takes three weeks or more to kick in, and when I took it last year it seemed to help somewhat.  So now I've stopped taking it again and even tho I'm still somewhat anxious, I don't feel that horrible jittery feeling anymore.  I still believe that in my case I fair much betterwhen I'm on Xanax like I was years ago.  My problem is much more anxiety than depression but if I'm anxious long enough, I begin to get depressed.  Naturally, my doctor ( and most others these days) always want to prescribe antidepressants and pooh-pooh the Xanax saying it's habit forming.  Well I was on it for two years when I was in my twenties and then went off it with NO side effects.  It helped"calm" me which these other pills dont. It stands to reason if someone is truly depressed that they probably need a surge of energy to get them out of the depression and I think that's what causes the "jitters."  But when someone like me is nervous,jittery and anxious to begin with, I think meds like Xanax work much better.  Sometimes I think these doctors are just puppets of the drug companies who are ALWAYS pushing antidepressants.  Anyway, that's my story.