One step forward...ten steps back:(

Happy New Year everyone! I hope everyone is doing well!
I have been having a rough couple of weeks. I spent the holidays alone with my fiance, which was very nice to not have to spend it with family! I love my family, but we all need a break! I feel the most comfortable with my fiance, so I was hoping that I would be anxiety free! Not so much! Everyday has been so up and down. I will wake up ok, but then get a headache or stomach ache, or palpitations. By lunch, I will feel better and go out, but then I start to feel bad again by dinner. I would almost rather feel bad all day than have such ups and downs. It seems like I am not making any progress here! I have been trying so hard to stay positive and go shopping and out to eat, but today I just feel like I have hit the wall! I am either sad or angry! I was doing so well without any meds, but I think I may need some to get through this!
Where do I go from here?

Are you in therapy or anything now?  I do think that at times that we might need a little extra something to get us over the hump.  Meds are a personal choice but I think if you feel in your gut that is what you need then you should speak with your doc and see if you can find something to work for you.  Trust your gut.

Hi jr
I know what you mean about the ups and downs in one day..its like your battery runs out and then picks up again lol..makes for an interesting day sometimes ...grrr
You mention that you have 'good' parts to your day..and not all 'bad'..yay..that is a good sign and sounds to me like you are making great progress :)) The fact that you keep plugging along shows courage and determination..well done!
Don't forget to give yourself heaps of praise when you feel you are coping well..and encouragement when your inner battery takes a low.

Maree

Glad to hear you are in therapy and like it...Definately getting through this will make you a better person...

If you have trouble seeing your accomplishments I would suggest starting an affirmation book...It is simple all you need to do is get a book and every day take a few minutes to jot down some of the things you are proud of yourself for/you accomplished that day.  When feeling you have not accomplished anything simply pull out the book and see what you have done.