You Know You Are Beating Panic Disorder When..............Part 2

I can walk into town now and go in shops without feeling an overwhelming sense of panic. I still get nervous but it's nowhere near as bad as it was!

I know I am starting to beat this when I am not taking as many benzos to kep me from freaking out and believe me this past bit has been enough to land me in the " land of OZ"

 

I am wearing so many different hats doing so many things that nmally would have me flipped and panicking BUT I am getting thru it all the way with only an odd valium or ativan

 

When I finally tell all my family to back off and let me live my life the way I chose NOT how they want me too .............I dont want to hear " stories" ............I can go to the Library

I have done that for way to long and I need to teach Cait it is okay to say" NO" without the guilts ..............I am her parent and I have to lead a positive way of life for her to follow and see that MOM can and will conquer..............so shall she in anything she sets out to do

 

When I know I have now made some serious decisions in my lfe even at my ripe old age that will make me happy in the long run and God Knows I want to be Happy

 

Seeing that it has been over 2 yrs since joing HW and knowing I might have played a samll part in helping out someone else out there and not wallowed in my own self pity partyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy's 

When I know I have made so many great friends and family over my time here and will continue to do so as long as you's will have me

 

                              " FIGHT THE FIGHT ALL...WE Can n Will Conquer as a WHOLE "

** TYPONESES LOL**

Glad to hear your accomplishments mom/Lyn...I think we should be seeing more peeps here I am sure others have stuff to share aswell...

Monday I went to class and had major anxiety...but I did not leave...had to talk infront of the class but survived...even made it to the car before the anxiety hit full blast...Not much but its something...

Yesterday...I spoke to my therapist about my speech class...I was reluctant to bring it up as it gives me great anxiety...I am sure my body language screemed anxiety while telling her too...BUT I told her and we discussed some coping skills and so on so HOPEFULLY...Monday will not be as bad as the last one...I even admitted to her that I had a panic attack by the time I got to the car... Sharing for me is not easy...This is a step in the right direction...

congrats...I dont get my hair done at a place havent in years...My aunt does it ...Yay for having family that can do things for you.

Awsome achivements everyone....babysteps were all taking them together

Beating PD is like those jaggy stock market graphs...even if you go through up and downs you're still making gradual progress upwards. I've had PD since childhood so bizarrely I've never resented or hated the disorder since I grew up with it. I only realised how 'normal' life could be when I started getting fewer attacks over the past year. I've had sporadic therapy but no medication or other intensive treatment (sadly it was an awkward subject with my parents who grew up in communist China where mental health wasn't discussed. People just assumed such problems don't exist, so I had to keep everything to myself).

So if it's any encouragement to people here, my PD improved substantially 'on its own'...I had virtually given up hope since I didn't have treatment or medication. At my worst I had constant insomnia caused by panic attacks that happen just as I'm falling asleep...and days where eating half a dry biscuit was a 'big step' (my PD stems from emetophobia so eating caused anxiety). But the moral of the story is that for some reason I can't fathom, my PD has dissipated after 12 years by itself. I haven't changed my lifestyle or anything else, but I'm down to less than 10 attacks a year...compared to having attacks almost every single day. So there's always hope...and even more so if you're fortunate enough to be on a right treatment ^_^!

When you used to start panicking when the traffic light was red in your car and freaked out cuz you felt trapped...and when it turned green you raced off..

now I find myself today not even paying attention when the light goes red.. I just stop and wait and get lost in my own little world just staring at random things and then suddenly it's green and I'm not moving yet and everyone else is LOL

TG~

When you JUMP outta bed feet barely hitting floor and ready to face a brand new BEAUTIFUL day

open the blinds and see all that fresh wonderous ( and lots of it ) snow out there

Knowing you are gonna be poked prodded xrayed the whole nine yards and oh my dont forget the inevitabe " Can I ask 45 students to come in this is a most UNUSUAL case"???

Heck no bring em all in ...........lol May as well learn from the mess I mean BEST...............

I know I am getting better I dont dread the morning afternoon nor evening anymore

I saw the light and I went for it

I choose to fight and I may not be Rocky but I am holding my own ........

It can and will happen I know this

 

FIGHT LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW.........Only today and you will see a difference I am telling you true

Smile laugh so hard you have tears and belly hurts shock yourself say " hello" to the first stranger ya meet on the street hold a door open for someone ..........JUST say........ Hi ther how are ya ?

EVERY STEP helps and works IMHO

* So Endeth the Lesson* 

when you get up in class and retell a story (as per the assignment) and NOT have a full blown panic attack by the end of the night...

Awsome Michelle I'm so proud of you....Happy Dance...

That's great Michelle! I loath public speaking, propbably why I have put speech off to the last class I'll need to graduate. :-( It is easier now that I'm older.

I too managed to speak in class on Wed. I survived...barely....