Frustrated

I hate doctors. I hate Tests. I hate Medication. I hate New Symptoms. and I Really hate anxiety

Medications:
Lexapro: One Week Extremely tired and stopped taking
Citalapram: Currently on the third Week.
Lorazapam: As Needed.

I just don't Know what to think any more. I have been dealing with minor anxiety all my life, but after visiting the doctor it exploded and nothing seems to help.

Symptoms:
Tingling/Burning in Right Arm, Leg, and Head(Face).
Constant Shoulder and Neck tension (especially at work)
Jaw Pain and temple pain. ( I thought I broke my jaw Yesterday it cracked so loud)
Pressure in my Head (Not bad)
Ears popping and Ringing
Right Eye feels gritty (Both eyes red)
Constantly taping my feet or moving my legs. ( Tired Legs and sore knees after sitting for awhile Gee I wonder what that is from)
Can't seem to get a full night sleep lately (waking up an hour or 2 early on average and can't get back to bed because my mind starts racing.
Can't concentrate at work.
Random Joint cracking.
Panic Attacks.
Lately I have felt really Jittery (teeth chattering), jumpy, and twitchy ( Not sure if Citalapram or anxiety)
My Best symptom though is My uneven Pupil size. (Google that terrifying symptom) The two Eye doctors I went to said it was nothing, My GP didn't notice until I told him even though he looked at my eyes all 10 times I was in to see him. MY Neuro said it is Transient Anisocoria without even seeing me. Had an MRI Which the Radiologist said was normal. IE no Nerve damage or Brain Tumor. They all seem to think I am one of the 20% of the population that this is normal for. Good thing I have Anxiety to boot. Nothing like a scary symptom and Anxiety. The Eye doctor mentioned that this could be caused by some anti depressants, but do you think I could find anything to substantiate that.

I want to Believe that the Neuro, GP, 2 Eye doctors, Chiro, and Therapsit are right and this is all anxiety. But it is so difficult. It seems like every week I am getting something New to worry about. I don't know if the citalapram is working or causing symptoms, but I feel like I have invested to much time to start over with a New medication. I am caught in this vicious cycle of constant tension and worrying. Does anyone else have anxiety symptoms on a daily basis. It is like every morning I wake up and my mind goes straight to the scary, fearfull, anxious, Nervous place and I can't seem to get out.

Joe Not So Cool,

I'm so sorry that you are in such a bad way right now, it's horrible to feel that way, I know.  A couple of months ago I was in pretty much the same place as you are right now, every symptom in the book, terrifying thoughts that were just out of control, waking to early, all day anxiety and panic attacks that seemed to last for hours on end.  I'm doing much better now, upped my meds a bit, and starting working on my cbt...I especially like Claire Weekes, so I started reading and re-reading her books until it finally sank in again and started to work for me.  You are going to make it through this, try some calming deep breathing or relaxation exercises.  Allow more time for your meds to kick in, as Normal mentioned they take time to work, so try and be patient about that.

Funny that you mention the pupil thing, I have the same thing and it used to scare the life out of me, but my pupil has been this way for at least 17 years...that's when I noticed it and nothing has ever happened to me.  It's safe to say that it is not an indicator of anything serious or deadly...I think something would have happened to me by now.  It sounds like you've had it thoroughly checked out, so maybe you could try to accept that the doctor's are right and that it's not a sign of something awful that you have. 

You hang in there and keep posting, there are alot of wonderful people here who know what you are going through and can offer some great advice.  I do hope that you will start to feel better very soon!!!

P.S.  Don't google your symptoms...it's too scary for people with anxiety   :)

One more thing...try the chiropractor..could be the nerves in the jaw. I am no dovtor but it seemed to help me alot.