Fear of going crazy once again.............worried sick

Hi everyone!  I haven't been on for a while, and the past couple of days, anxiety hit me head on again.  i have OCD (i haven't been diagnosed, but I fit the picture to a T), and now i'm worried, 'what if it's not that, what if i have schizoprenia or something?'  i've been through this worry before, and i'm not sure if it's because in the past week, a lot of financial issues have come my way and made me sick.  so i'm trying to believe that this fear comes from the anxiety i've been under lately.  the reason i have this fear, is because i was reading things on schizoprenia, and one of the symptoms is having bizarre worries.  i'm not sure now if my 'bizarre' worries are from OCD or something more??????

i've had this one worry lately that i know is absolutely ridiculous, and because i even had this thought, i'm worried.  it's a circle that won't stop.  i need some reassurance!!!  but then again, i know my worries sound ridiculous, so that's a good sign, right?  one of my biggest fears is going crazy, and this worry has wrecked the past couple of days for me, because i keep thinking what if???  is anyone else here like that??  i was one told on here, that if i was going crazy or had something like that, i wouldn't even worry about it because i wouldn't think i was crazy.  please respond as soon as possible, i need to feel better!!!

Thanks Lyn!  Right before I read this i was in the middle of googling schizoprenia-i'm not going to do that now!  i'll just wreck my day because i will probably work myself into symptoms!  i'm going to try very hard to put this in the back of my head, but have you had bizarre over the top worries that really make no sense and are impossible, yet it crosses your mind still???  i guess it is just other anxieties that bring this on......

that makes me feel better!  but one thing that worried me that you mentioned, is that a few years ago on the news, there was a story of a couple families where someone broke into their homes and put poison in the juice, and a few of the members died.  if i ever leave a bottle of water in my car, and have left the door unlocked, that thought crosses my mind, even though i know it's far fetched.  that's not a symptom is it??!!!!!  and sometimes tat has even worried me.  oh god, i hope i'm ok

I ended up checking up briefly on the internet about S.  i didn't read too much, i didn't want to get myself worked up, but i'm not delusional, i understand my worries are ridiculous, i don't have hallucinations, so Lyn, i know that it's just something that will pass (the worry that is) like you said.  i just wish i could stop thinking about it, and get on with my day/life.  it helps talking to people that understand and have been through the same worries themselves. 

 

Thank you so much for your input!!  Even though it's a horrible thing to go through, it helps so much knowing that others are going and have been through it too.  i was reading past posts here, and this type of topic has been brought up a few times, which also made me feel better.  i'm going to try and keep my mind off of these things, i know it will be hard, but i have to do it.

thank you so much once again

Thanks Lyn!!  i know i go over the top and beyond with my worrying, i'm a bit more calm now, however, i'm trying to shake it out of my head and enjoy life!

i will add you to my msn, i would love to talk to you more! 

As is other ppl .....
Worrier I was gone most of day Cait has strep thraot and viral infection in chest not good ......But hopefully I will see ya on tomorrow
Take care
LYN

Well i am new here i suffer from extreme panic attacks and agoraphobia i have issues of leving my house or goin anywhere for that matter all my friends have given up on me thinking i dont twanna hang out with them anymore i dont know what to do i think every ache and pain i have is deadly or im always worrying im having a heart attack even though i have had 2 echocardiograms 3 stress tests was admitted to the best cardio hospital in my area for 5 days had ekg's every 8 hours and heart enzyme tests every 8 hours why cant i understand that i am ok? This panic stuff is eally getting to me and the agoraphobia as well i have thoughts of me never getting better and thats something i cannot deal with i have had it for 5 moinths and im about to go bizerk i often have thoughts of ending it all but i know i will never act on that thought but the thought is still there can anyone help me over come this disorder.? 

But on my reply to the person who thinks they are goin crazy the true fact of someone thats crazy DOESNT know their crazy the people who think they are crazy are not so in otherwords if u was crazy you would not feel the feeling of bein crazy its hard to explain but its true a crazy person doesnt know they are crazy ..

Hi,

First, I want to say that I do not think that you are schizophrenic Worrier.

I do want to clear up a little of the misconceptions that I'm seeing regarding schizophrenia though. It is not true that you have to hear voices or music or noises in order to be schizophrenic. Hearing things and/or seeing things are just one of the symptoms of schizophrenia - hallucinations. Many people with schizophrenia are simply delusional. This does not mean that they have to have hallucinations, although they might, it just means that their perception of reality is altered. For example, they may see a person crossing the street towards you, getting in their car after you, and following you to the light. This actually happened - their was no hallucination. However, a schizophrenic may feel that this person is following them or something similar. Again, there was no hallucination, just an altered perception of reality.

There are also some schizophrenics that are neither delusional or hallucinatory. They may be introverted, incoherent, or in a catatonic like state - perhaps simply withdrawn and showing little emotion. These cases are much harder to diagnose...yeah, kind of obvious I know.

It is also not true that a schizophrenic cannot see the symptoms in themselves. My father is a schizophrenic. He identified the symptoms in himself and sought care. He is a college graduate with a degree in mathematics and a highly successful career. He suffered from delusions all the time and a few hallucinations, yet was still able to recognize that it was not reality. Most people with delusions or hallucinations aren't as lucky though.

There are many informative websites on schizophrenia out there and I really don't see that much of a problem with educating yourself regarding mental conditions, particularly if you suffer from one already. I suffer from panic attacks, anxiety, depression, and OCD - all diagnosed. I've often wondered if I am schizophrenic myself, but through education I've pretty much convinced myself that I'm not. If you're up to it, go through some medical journals, they often contain very interesting facts - although there are so many conflicting facts that it can be difficult to discern the truth.

One other fact regarding schizophrenia is that there appears to be a genetic factor involved, according to wikipedia as high as 80%, but I didn't check where they got that source from.

Well, I didn't plan on this as an introduction to the anxiety forums, but there ya have it.

For clarity, I am not a doctor, nurse, or member of any other medical field. I'm a mathematician like my Dad and hopefully not schizophrenic.

PS - I went through the same thing as you worrier. I was convinced I was schizophrenic. Heck, I still think I am on occasion, but at least I know what to look for now.

Post Edited (Jana042) : 4/5/2007 1:04:26 AM (GMT-6)

I do not believe worrier has it nor many other ppl .......
I am quite positive it is another "gift of the A/P

S presents way differntly than those with A/P

Thank you everyone!  That makes it clear, and i believe i am over reacting, but i can't help it!!!

I know that i'm putting this stress on myself, as there's no need for me to even feel this way!!

I do feel better though!

Everyone here is wonderful!  Thank God for this website!