Hi Garry, I sympathise
maybe you should quit the lexapro and take extra benzos for any after effects, bad effects usually are for the first week only so I guess its not going to ever suit you
the term SSRI should only mean prozac type meds, and not mean all antidepressants, serzone was taken off the market wasnt it? trazodone, now used mainly as a sleeping pill is related to it I think but do check as I could be wrong
you do need to urgently learn some CBT coping and relaxation skills, try some deep slow breathing in a relaxed way, this usually calms people
I guess you will eventually have to try other antidepressants in the hope of finding 1 that works for both the anxiety and depression
vivid dreams are common from all antidepressants