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Posted 8/3/2007 9:54 PM (GMT 0)

hello everyone

i have had anxiety problems for a long time. I have never been diagnosed but i am sure i am a hypochondriac. i can hear of a disease that someone has and if that disease scares me then i normally end up thinking (beleiving) i have it too. i have done this for a long time.about 10 months ago my husbands aunt was dieing with ms. i contracted the symptoms and had anxiety attacks of and on for two weeks much of the time where i couldn't even eat and lost 10 pounds. i went to the Dr. and was put on paxil. it helped but because of side affects they switched me to prozac. i didn't have any luck with it so after 2 months my Dr. thought i could show signs of bipolar (which i don't think i have). she put me on zyprexa i took it 3.5 weeks and gained 17 pounds and retained water like crazy i decided since i was fairing pretty good i would go off all meds, which was a HUGE mistake. after about a week my symptoms came back worse than ever. instead of being afraid of a physical disease this time i have been tripping out over going crazy and developing phycosis or something. i think i get it under control then i wake up thinking am i hearing a voice? my worst fear is going crazy and harming my kids like andrea yates or something. and again i have lost my appetite losing weight. does anyone else do this? i have just started taking paxil agian the past 4 days. does anyone have any comments to help me?

Godsgrace

Post Edited (stkitt) : 8/3/2007 4:02:57 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 8/3/2007 10:00 PM (GMT 0)
Godsgrace
Welcome to Healing Well. I am so sorry you are going through this bad time. I would like to recommend that you seek out your physician immediately and restart you medication.
Many times people with a mental health disorders go off their meds on their own thinking they must be cured. In your description this appears to be the trigger to the return of your problems.
Posted 8/4/2007 1:10 PM (GMT 0)
 i have started back on my paxil but only for a few days. my dr. gave me a months worth to see how it goes. my symptoms are tring to get better , but as everyone with anxiety problems know it is a big  mind thing too. i just want to try to control my fears a little better to help the meds to work cause i know they can only do so much. i just know if i can get back to feeling better , i will not be going back off!  is it normal to completly loose appetite during these times?  thanks
Posted 8/4/2007 2:45 PM (GMT 0)
Hello,
Gald to see you have such a positive outlook. Kudos to you.
Loss of appetitie for some is a huge problem for others, over-eating is the issue. Everyone is different.
I am sure others will give you more info.
Gentle Hugs for sure.
Posted 8/4/2007 8:30 PM (GMT 0)

I too went off meds in February thinking I was ok.  Don't feel alone with doing that.  I had to go back in June due to a panic attack and anxiety has returned.  My physician prescribed lexapro and alaprazolam.  I have gotten something else for sleeping.  That was my worst enemy in the last few weeks.  Hang in there, do what the physician says and hopefully you will be on your way to normal (in my head, that means no excessive worry, etc.).  I awaiting that too.  Keep in touch.

Posted 8/6/2007 9:20 PM (GMT 0)
i am feeling a little better about my fear of going crazy , but now my fear is i am not going to get over this horrible anxious feeling. i told my husband the only way i can describe it is i feel like i am going in for major surgery or something. i have never been so bad for so long. i am still taking paxil but i just havn't had much releif yet. i took a xanax last night to try and help me sleep but it failed to do so. i just feel so distant from everything and everybody. i don't want to go no where or see any body. i just want to curl up in bed but can't do that because my thoughts run wild with what if's. i just feel so lost right now that i don't know what to do with myself. my husband tries to help by saying he is sure it going to be over soon but that is not much when you need it to be over NOW! i just feel like i have lost my will to fight because it seems endless. my fear is ending up in a hospital. any words of comfort??
Posted 8/8/2007 8:25 AM (GMT 0)
HI there and Welcome
it sounds to me like you are also dealing with some depression as well
It can and will get better your hubby is supportive right?
For me it took alot of Baby steps BUT those baby steps still get you somewhere ya know
as well learnign other self help tools to fight this such as breathing,relaxation,self help books and having this forum as a lil family does help i find anyways
Please do stay with us and I do hope you will look into some of these techniques for yourself as well as CBT
FIGHT
YOU have this DD it doesnt have YOU.........
All the best sweetie
LYN
** BTW** I think many ppl have fears of hospitilization and it overtakes their every thought but you can and will get thru this stick with us here and get all your suuport you deserve
it will be okay
LYN
Posted 8/8/2007 2:59 PM (GMT 0)
thank you for your support here, and yes, my husband is the best that there is, he is so understanding and supportive that it makes me upset i can't be a better wife for him. he tells me no matter what happens he willl stand by me and the best thing is i actually beleive him.
Posted 8/8/2007 5:23 PM (GMT 0)
Dear Godsgrace
I am sorry you feel so down and I think you are most likely a wonderful wife as well as I would bet your husband does too. You would not be here in our group if you were not trying to overcome your problems. You are lucky to have each other. smile
We will do everything in our power to help you through this difficult time and know we care about you so gentle hugs and keep on posting . You belong to this family now. We are glad to have you with us, we are blessed.
Gentle Hugs
Posted 8/8/2007 11:42 PM (GMT 0)
Hello Godsgrace and welcome.

This is a wonderful forum and you will find lots of wonderful advice here.

Don't think for a minute you are a bad wife because of this. Your blessed to have a wonderful husband who understands. It will get better!

The best to you!

Hugs
Mary
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