You all are so great, thank you for lifting me up and making sure to inform me that I am not a failure or loser in any way shape or form.
My husband keeps reassuring me that my only job/concern right now is to get better and to stop worrying about everything else - he'll take care of it. He really is a good man, I just worry sometimes that all of this will could be too much for him. But I will take him at his word for now.
Again, logically I do know that going to the hospital was the smartest thing that I could have done, but it sure has made a mess of my life by doing so. But I can't regret it, because now I know what's wrong with me and it can be treated.
I did get notification that the short-term disability will continue for awhile longer - either until the therapist says i'm ready to work again or until the disability runs out which will be another 4 or 5 months or so. So that's a bit of financial relief for me. And as I said before we will continue with the insurance through the COBRA - it's horribly expensive, but we can't be without insurance, that's for sure!
Thanks again for helping me and continuing to let me be in your family - this is a great family and I am so happy that I found you all. (((((HUGS))))))) to all of you.