Is this anxiety?

There's no one I can talk to about this, but I've been basically terrified all day. Last night it felt like an electric hand was squeezing my heart, the way you feel when a car cuts you off driving and you think you're about to rear-end them, except that it's lasting hours at a time instead of seconds. I've been glued to a chair most of the day, watching tv and crying. I'm starting night shifts tonight, and I am sitting here getting more and more terrified as I listen to the clock tick and know that I have to leave for work in a couple of hours. This started a few months ago when I graduated school and got my first job working as a nurse. Nursing is hard, lots of the more experienced nurses are kind of mean, and the hours have been brutal, but I knew all that going in to it. I don't think that other new grad nurses are having the same amount of anxiety that I am. Everyone tells me that I worry about nothing (which I know rationally) and that I will get used to my job and everything will be just fine, but these feelings of dread have only gotten worse. I'm at the point where I can hardly keep any food down, and what I do manage to keep down just goes right through me. I saw my doctor last week, and she said I might have mild depression. I also have a vitamin D deficiency. I don't want to be diagnosed with a mental disorder, but I think that my symptoms are at least bordering on the pathological and maybe if I come clean about all of them to my doctor, she will give me a prescription for something that will save my sanity--Buspar?  Sorry to bother a bunch of strangers, but every friend I've tried to talk to today has just patted me on the head and told me to calm down. I really feel like I'm dying.

Hello

I'd like to extend a warm welcome to you on your first visit to Healing Well! To help you get the most out of the A & P Forum please take the time to browse our threads.
There is a thread I just posted to re the same type of question as yours, here is the link: https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=1009485
Trust me you have come to the right place to meet people who know what your going through and where your coming from. Think about therapy for yourself.  It would do a lot to help you get centered and learn how to cope with the stress and anxiety of being a new Nurse. :) Keep posting.