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Posted 1/29/2008 7:53 PM (GMT 0)
Okay,

so I went to the gyno yesterday to have my yearly, she said everything was fine, but still recommended  to have all the STD and HIV testing and everything anyways just to be sure. Well the results from the tests dont come back until thursday and I am feeling such bad anxiety right now, I feel like my life is over, I keep thinking about all the what if's and what would i do.... I have had the same partner for the last four years, and I know he wouldnt cheat on me but im still worried that they maybe missed something at the last appointment and they might find it now.... I have to wait two more days to find out the results and I feel like its just dragging, i am feeling so anxious right now. Im not currently taking any medicine, so do you think that my doctor would be able to give me something to calm me down for the next two days?? Or does anyone have any words of encouragement for me??

Thanks,

Posted 1/29/2008 9:34 PM (GMT 0)
Hay kate i understand how you feel girl friend! Last year i went for a regular pap test and they did an ultra sound as i was having irregular mencies.They found a polyp on the lining of my endometrial wall! At first i wasnt too alarmed because i had heard of people having polyps before and they never seem to be a big deal! But my polyp was causing me to have prolonged vaginal bleeding! When they said i had to have surgery to have it removed and that there was a small chance that it could be cancerous,i thought holy sh......! All i could think about was dieing at 31 years old!! Another thing that had me worried is that cancer runs in my family.I've had 2 granmothers to die of cancer!!! On top of that i had to wait a whole week before i could get in to have the surgery,talk about a nervous wreck!!! So i had a whole week to think about whether or not i had cancer!! Well guess what i got a clean bill of health and came out ok!!! But waiting was hell!!! But like my girl babyt told you dont worry yourself about the what if's because the what if's rarely happen, im sure eveything will be ok especially considering you've been with the same person for that long!!!
Posted 1/29/2008 9:38 PM (GMT 0)
Panike and Babytiger,
Thank you for the support. I know my situation sounds silly compared to other people but i just cant get the thought out of my head. Im surprised that im able to function at work right now. At this point any time a happy thought enters my mind it is quickly washed away by the fear of these results! the next two days are really going to be hell!
Posted 1/29/2008 11:06 PM (GMT 0)
Kate
it is so natural to be anxious about these results nothing is silly about it at all IMHO........

You could ask the doc for something short term or try some self help techniques such as deep breathing or relaxation tech's

IF they do not work then by all means do ask your doc I am sure if you have an understanding and empathetic doc he or she will help you thru this

Remember we are here for you to vent on and get support from any time

Take care and keep us posted
LYN
Posted 1/29/2008 11:13 PM (GMT 0)

Hey Kate, I totally agree with Lyn and the rest.  You are experiencing anticipatory anxiety awaiting the test and the waiting is kicking in your anxiety IMHO.  I would say your normal and we all know where your coming from and what your going through.

Gentle Hugs to you hun, stick with us.  We are here to support you.
Kitt

Posted 1/29/2008 11:31 PM (GMT 0)
Kate, I think all of bus that suffer from PD go thru those moments...so dont worry. One thing I learnt was that 99.9% of what we worry about never happens. I was that way once. I had a nervous breakdown when it took 3 weeks for me to get a result for Lupus. I worried so much about everything that I got tired of worrying and had to quit (worryinbg) from the exhaustion of worrying...LOL. You will be alright. It would take a mighty long time for me to tell you all the places anxiety took me.
Posted 1/30/2008 8:28 PM (GMT 0)
Hello again,
so i just got my results( i called to see if they were in early) and they were all negative and normal. Now here is where you are probably going to think I am crazy... I still am having the reprecussions from the stress of thinking about it. I still am feeling the same anxiety i was feeling before. Can someone give me some comforting words to make me feel better... or maybe should i go see a doctor??
Posted 1/31/2008 5:49 AM (GMT 0)
Kate
I SO agree with Baby about this ...you need to come down off of this high angst you were in about the tests and get yourself into the mode where you are able to CONVINCE self that they were negative and you are fine ..........

Anticipatory Anxiety is a real kicker my friend and you are okay and the tests were negative ..as Baby said you just have to let it all Finally sink in and then you will come down .........from the Anxiety heightened space you have been in.........Dont beat yourself up over this it is not just something that you are going thru alone I know I can get myself worked up like this as well and when I come down I come down so nicely and am in heaven so to speak with the weight lifted off my shoulders


Take care and yes keep us posted plz.......LYN
Posted 1/31/2008 3:20 PM (GMT 0)
Lyn,
You are so right. I pretty much did convince myself that I had an STD and so now that I dont, Im having a hard time believing that I dont!! Its so hard, because ive been sitting at my desk for the last two days in pure fear and now that the results are fine being at my desk is reminding me of that fear. Do you know what I mean? I know it all sounds bizarre but man anxiety can really take a toll on the brain!!
Posted 2/1/2008 1:48 AM (GMT 0)
YES I really do know what you mean sweetie ...............been there with other situations but still been there and
I know you have to come down and give yourself the time to ADJUST to the fact that this is GREAT news you are okay and the tests were all NEGATIVE

Anxiety take a toll on every dang part of us .thats why support and friends on here mean so much and become so close in such little time IMHO..we can all understand what someone is or has gone thru
We have been in their shoes or we have come from that place of the dark darn fear .......

Yes sweetie .Like I said I do SOOOOO know how you feel as I a sure so may others do as well ...
Stay with us k and get the support and enjoy the family atmosphere here .....
We are here for you
REMEMBER that always ...........Luvs.......LYN
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