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Posted 2/23/2008 7:47 AM (GMT 0)

Hey All,
I think I am the only person still awake, I am worried and anxious and I just get up, get through the day and go to bed.  I know I am worrying needlessly but I can't stop.  I want to run and hide.  I need some one to validate that I am making a difference in this world.  I am just a mess and I don't know why.  I so want to help others and know that my life has meaning but I am lost and cannot find a way to get back on track.

I am tired, I hate pity parties and yet here I am throwing a party for one. I love you all but I so wish I could have coffee with you.

Good Night
Kitt

Posted 2/27/2008 12:00 PM (GMT 0)
Panike
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Date Joined Jan 2008
Total Posts : 374
Posted 2/9/2008 7:38 PM (GMT -7)

HI kitt how are you how is your husband coming along? How are you coming along? I hope all is well,just checking on you sweety!!

** I moved this here from the Members plz read thread Panike K ...That thread is specifically intended for members to read as Kitt has posted with other mods
Hoping you do understand sweetie .......**Luvs.LYN
Posted 2/27/2008 12:02 PM (GMT 0)
HEY my Lil sis
I got your back sweetie and always will ..........I know this will all work out
Dang it has too ......You and Toby have been thru ENOUGH already my sweet lil sis
Count on me you know that k
Love ya tons and tons
Big sis OUT for now with loads of love
Posted 2/27/2008 2:06 PM (GMT 0)
Posted 2/27/2008 2:14 PM (GMT 0)
Kitt is there any new news on your hubby? I hope he is doing well! I still ahve in my thoughts and prayers! I hope you are getting along good as well! We all luv you!
Posted 2/28/2008 8:15 AM (GMT 0)
Kitt, I'm running a bit late, but I'll have that coffee with you now...please don't doubt that you are special and making a HUGE contribution on this planet (let alone this site!!), love ya bella xxxx (you want milk or cream?? I even have soy if you like) xxx

Posted 2/28/2008 10:29 PM (GMT 0)

Thanks all, I freaked out this morning and had to take the Valium and go lay down as all I could do was fret about the waiting.

I am a doer and don't do well at waiting.  I want to know what is going on.  He had the blood draw at 1:30 and now it will most likely not be until next Wed to get results as the unrologist that ordered the test only comes to our clinic on Wed.

I found out about my Father this same way and it is playing dejavu with my head even thow I keep reasoning that all will be fine. 

Thanks for all your kind words and support.
I appreciate each of you.

Meg, I will take that black and straight up.

Hugs
Kitt

Posted 2/28/2008 10:37 PM (GMT 0)
Am here for ya Lil sis
You know that
Luvs ya tons
Big sis
Posted 3/1/2008 3:05 PM (GMT 0)

The blood work was repeated on Thursday and we were told it would take 6-10 days to receive the results so someone put me in a straight jacket if I start to go bonkers again.

Love to all of you and I know it will be a normal reading this time around.

So many have so much more going on in their lives, I will be ok.

Hugs
Kitt

Posted 3/3/2008 2:40 AM (GMT 0)
Dang Kitt! More wating huh? I'm the same way i hate to wait especially when it comes to situations like this! The suspence kills you! This is just one more hurdle we have to jump and like always we will make it! Everything will be ok Kitt and i'm still praying for you all! No matter the outcome we will all be here for you!
Posted 3/3/2008 5:59 AM (GMT 0)

Dear Panike,

I am so grateful for your support and I guess 20 years ago I might have been stronger but for some reason the waiting and all of the sadness on the site have really thrown  me for a loop.  I am doing my best to keep my private feelings out of my responses here but I will admit I did slump a bit yesterday and this morning.  I am my own worse critic and I can beat myself up better than anyone else.  Tonight I am trying to let go of the pain and get back on track.

I am here for you and for every member in need.  I care and support and I am glad to see you back on the board.  You are family.

Allow yourself to do what you need to to feel better. This is for you, not anyone else.

Bless you and many hugs

Kitt

Posted 3/3/2008 5:55 PM (GMT 0)
I am sorry you keep having to wait, it must being tearing you apart, sometimes knowing right away would be easier than you know the outcome but maybe like they say good things come to those who wait, i will pray for you both, i have been worried about you guys, i'll be here for you anytime your such a great person and you don't deserve to go threw this.


good wishes to you both
machelle
Posted 3/3/2008 6:33 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks, I so apreciate the prayers. You are all so supportive in this forum and I am glad to have you here.
Kitt

Posted 3/6/2008 5:40 AM (GMT 0)
Kitt, close your eyes, take a deep breath. 

Now picture us all around you giving you a great BIG hug!!!!

I know I have not posted much lately but I do check the forum frequently.  This month will make 1 year that my A/P went into overdrive!

If it were not for You, Lyn, and the members of this forum I would of went insane!  I really thought I was losing my mind.

Honey, you have been an Angel for so many.  There's no doubt you were put here to help others and you HAVE done just that!

Waiting is the hardest part.  It is so easy to say "hang in there" but I know how difficult that can be.

Try and take one moment at a time.   It will be fine!

Were all here for you and do not feel bad to vent.  That is what were here for....to help each other!

Love You Bunches Sweetheart,

Mary

P.S.~Close your eyes AFTER you read this!  lol

Posted 3/6/2008 2:43 PM (GMT 0)

Dear Mary Sunshine, the other Mary,

Thank you. It was a week yesterday and the only day the  Urologist has office hours in our clinic.  I think both my hubby and I were disappointed that no call re lab was received but as they say, "No news is good news"

You are appreciated so much and I love to see you here and I catch you on some of the other sites too.

You know you have our support and we care so much for your well-being. Blessings to you my dear Mary.

Hugs

Kitt

Posted 3/12/2008 11:13 PM (GMT 0)

Hubby's lab report down some but not in normal so will redo lab in 3 months.  I will stop posting aout this as it is my problem to learn to deal with and I am Catastrophisizing the situation. I  basically make a big deal out of small stuff so I will move on and make room for the members with bigger problems.

Thanks for all the support.

Kitt

Posted 3/13/2008 12:01 AM (GMT 0)
Lil Sis
I am here for you
You are here for all of us one time or another ...

YOU need to vent these feelings and we are alwasy here to listen and ya know
I will always have you in my heart.....thoughts and prayers..Toby as well ...........

Love ya
Big sis
Posted 3/13/2008 12:03 AM (GMT 0)
Sunshine and Panike and all of you
Thanks for all the kind words about myself and Kitt
We are here for you all and right now I am going thru some things with dad I will post but not right now and not in this thread

THIS is for our sweet and loving thoughtful and ALWAYS GIVING kitt
We do love you and we are gonna be right here for ya right all??
........Big sis
Posted 3/13/2008 1:42 PM (GMT 0)

Thanks all.......................you are the best and I wish I could do more to help each of you.  You all give so much to each toher and to the members who just come here to read.

Thanks so much.  You touch my heart.

Kitt

Posted 3/13/2008 6:47 PM (GMT 0)
ah skitt, if your worried about something i don't mind worry with you i know how it feels, i wish my family would care more about me they haven't been there for me, but we are here for you, i know i am, glad its went down and maybe next time it will be normal, without you and the others on here i don't know where i would be, you have made living easier , your like family (but a caring one) and i want to be there no matter how big or small the problem.

take care

machelle
Posted 3/13/2008 7:36 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks machelle
My sentiments exactly

Luvs
LYN
Posted 3/13/2008 8:32 PM (GMT 0)

Thanks Machelle and Big Sis,

I will make sure I turn to my HW family so know ahead of time, I know where to find you. 

Hugs

Kitt

Posted 3/13/2008 8:57 PM (GMT 0)
You better lil sis

Luvs and huggles

Big sis
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