Anger=Panic Attack

P-Fit,

I am sorry you are having a tough go of it right now, it's okay to be angry, much better than to bottle it up. I have to say, and this is just me that anger has never caused me an attack. Wierd! But that's just me. I find I am more likely to have an attack if I don't say what I need to say. I guess the best thing we can try and do is achieve some balance. Get the anger out on paper (I love journalling it all out) so that you won't have it running through your head all night and causing insomnia.

If you really want your spouse to know how stressed you are then maybe you could put him in line for the next bolt of lightening(joking!!!)...it is so hard for people without A/P to understand. But that doesn't make it easier for us. If you feel that quitting your job will help you, then it is no-ones decision but your own. Do what you need to stay sane. Hang in there. Let us know what you decide.

Meg

thirstyforchrist said...
P-Fit,
Honey I have had to quit three jobs due to my anxiety. My husband never understands and that is so hard. I know how you feel. We are financialy strained so right now I am working two part time jobs to help out. It is so hard. And I know about the kids birthdays too. I sometimes think that my husband and in-laws think that my son is Their son and not mine. They seem to think they should have all the say in it and I should have none, I guess because I'm unstable. I will keep you in my prayers and I hope things get better for you. Do you have insurance on your home? I think most companies cover lightning damage and they should replace everything you lost.
If you need to quit your job, then do it. If it causes you too much stress then you will never be happy, nor will anyone else, so you do what you need to do.
Love to you, Rachel

My husband and I had a long talk last night. We are looking over our finances, savings and trying to come up with a reasonable date for me to quit. I dont think they will let me go part time here, at least not in this position. I dont have a passion for this career anyway, but have stayed in it about 18yrs cause I'm good at it and the pay is good. My passion is wellness/fitness and helping teens/women with body image issues. I'm hoping some doors will open in that area soon. I've put some feelers out so we'll see.

I've decided to let the in-laws thing go...trying to pick my battles. It's hard when there are big familes on both sides that live a good distance away. I guess he'll be having 2 parties for the next few years until he's old enough to make the guest list...lucky him