thirstyforchrist said...
Peacesoul,
Okay, I have thought about it and I was going to go to bed but I dont want to lay there and think stupid stuff so I'll write this instead. So here it goes. (this may get long)
I see myself being happy and confident and unafraid of life. I see myself loving my family with all my might and doing everthing I can to make them happy. I see myself being really active in my church and leading the youth group. I see myself singing at church and doing God's work for other's. I see myself being successful and beautiful, from the inside out. I see my house being in perfect shape with everything clean and organized. I see myself being able to send my son to pre-school and not worry about him getting sick. I see us reading books and laughing and talking. I see my husband and me having fun like we used to. I see us playing games and watching movies and being happy on the holidays. And I dont know why but all of this is making me unbearably sad. I feel so so so sad right now. I think it's because I know I can never be this way. I think it's because I know I will always be crazy and scared and depressed and I will slowly drive everyone away from me and die lonely. I am so sad. I feel sick. I've got to go..
Ok, I want you to think what you've said above every night before you go to bed. I want you to visualize this over and over.
Leave out the negative last part that I didn't highlight.
By visualziing this over and over, your subconsccious will catch on and I promise you, you will feel happy again. You're the master of our future and the outcome.
If you keep telling yourself you wil fail and you're crazy, then so that's what you will be. Tell yourself you want all the things and are all the things you talk about above, you will be it
You have little confidence in yourself and low self esteem so you believe you can never have it. Of course you can have it. EVERY person on earth deserves this form of happiness. Some of us just feel we don't deserve it.
There is a book called "The Power of your Subsoncsious Mind" think book changed my thinking and I think every person with anxiety and depression needs to read this.
The books shows you techniques on how to change your thinking in order to combat these fears
You can get the book used on Amazon for 77 cents. NO JOKE! It was a New York Times Best Seller