I'm asking for a support group for this eating disorder!

Hi Fitzy,

That was a wonderful wake up call. Thanks for giving Rachel so much support. I think she needed to hear what you said. And in the long run, she will be much better off. As will her family.

The support that you showed Rachel is remarkable.

Best wishes hun for a wonderful day.

Hugs, Karen

Syn,
Hey there, I think that if we have the insurance coverage we need, and the money to pay for the rest that the insurance wont cover, I will go. Thats today though. Hopefully I will stay in this posative mood and want to get better all the time. Thanks for your advice. I do want to spend many happy and healthy years with my husband and son. Love to you!
Rachel

Rachel,

Fitzy is absolutely right on with this!  I was 17 when I went through anorexia.  I also played the games of thinking I could end it on my terms.  I played that game which led to several hospitalizations for various complications brought on by the disorder and the beginnings of organ failure.  I was told my ovaries had regressed to the age of a small child and that I would never have children.  Through all of that I continued to believe that I had control over the disorder until one day I realized the truth....the disorder controlled me.  Every single thing about me.  My lifestyle, physical and mental health, personality, appearance,  relationships, EVERYTHING!  That day I approached my parents and said "send me away before I die".  My parents arranged a 6 hour ambulance ride to the Mayo Clinic.  Upon my arrival, I was admitted with the status of terminal.  Do not let yourself get to that point, get the help you need NOW!!  Needless to say, I am alive and well.  I am married, a mother of two, and a career woman. 

To alleviate some of your fears that I assume you may be experiencing I am not overweight, I am not a concentration camp prisoner in appearance, I am just right.  Even though my time at the Mayo Clinic brought me back to a healthier state, I had to work hard for years to maintain a healthy state of mind and not slip backwards.

Please seek the help, you only have one life to live.  Live it well!

-Soul

Sorry I haven't been around...having a hard time lately.

I read through most of everyone's replies, but I don't think anyone said this exactly...if they did sorry for repeating it. Someone mentioned that even if you don't go to the treatment facility you might be there for your son physically, but not mentally. Well if you keep up your eating disorder you may not have the opportunity to be there even physically. As someone else said they were admitted to the hospital as "terminal". In a few years, or sooner, you could be dead and no one in your family, including your son, would see you ever again. 4 weeks is nothing compared to a lifetime. You are young...you have so much to look forward to in your life and your son's life.

I know that feeling of being at a technically "healthy" weight. Some people say how great you look because you've lost weight, others don't understand what the big deal is since you're not at an "unhealthy" weight. You know what you're doing and you know it's not even close to healthy.

Please take the time to do something for yourself...and your family. You need this treatment. I don't want you to get the wrong idea though. This treatment is just a start. You won't be magically cured, but you will be given tools on how to handle this disease and stay on your road to recovery.

I honestly am not 100% better. For me I actually went in the other direction. I have a very distorted body image and yo-yo severely because of it. Then I've also developed health problems that add weight gain and sometimes weight loss. It's been a very hard road for me. I have to be careful when I exercise or when I try to "diet"...I tend to go overboard. I've been in therapy on and off for it and never fully got the tools to keep things at bay.

Learn from me. Do what I never had the courage to do. Actually this was never an option given to me. This is a GIFT for you. Please accept it and get help.

*hugs*

Rachel,

Starving yourself will certainly get you the attention you want. It may also mean you have your son taken away from you and are put into treatment against your will for much longer than four weeks. This is in your hands sweetie. We love you. Make the brave decision. Live.

Meg

what's going on hon? why did you stop your meds? maybe I missed something somewhere so I'll look around, but hoping you'll update us later. *hugs*

Rachel
YOU want your son and to be around him correct
Please get back on your meds what you have done could cause major problems
with your health

Meds like these are NOT meant to just be stopped

I believe with all my heart YOU
Must go to this TX centre
Email me if you would like
I have gone thru simuliar problems

LYN

Hey yall,
I'm so sorry to give up like this. I just dont know what else to do. I feel so hopeless now. You dont realize how mean my momma can be. She already threatened to call social services on me because she says I dont feed my son and I dont bathe him everday. Which is totally FALSE. She's just mad because I dont do everything her way. He's two, and he's happy AND healthy. She hurt me really bad with that. She said it was dropped but I know that it's only dropped until she decides to talk about it again. I know that I am grown and an adult with my own family and I told her that. She refuses to stay out of things. And I thought by letting her in on this she would feel important and suppot me. Wrong. She is so mean to me sometimes. She only thinks her way. And so, I'm afraid of what she'll do if I go to this center. She says it wont help me and I need to be with my son. I dont know what to do. I wish there was some way to cut her off without cutting her completely out of my life. I love her very much and I've spent my whole life trying to please her. I'm not anymore. I'm not perfect. She thinks I should be. Whatever. I'm sorry I'm so up and down on here. I stopped taking my medicine because I'm so tired of feeling numb. I'm so tired of being sad and not being able to cry. So that's why I've stopped that. Dont worry about me. I;ll be fine. I've dealt with all this crap my whole life. It's not gonna kill me now. I think I'm just gonna end this thread now. Thanks for supporting me. I may not have what it takes though. Sorry to let yall down. I really do appriciate the support and love. This may be the only place I am really accepted.

Rachel,

Listen to what everybody is saying to you. You said yourself that your mother was toxic to you. You have the oppertunity to get help, so give it a try why don't you. You don't have to stay if you can't handle it. You can maybe see your husband and son on weekends.

Know that we are here for you whatever you choose. But we really recommend that you go to treatment. If not, go back to your counselor and see if they will help you with a diet to follow, or something, you can't just give up. It isn't fair to your son. And we all want to see you try. Take your meds like you are suppose to and take responsibility for your life. Be a mother to your son, he needs you and we need you to try.

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs, Karen

I will be seeing my therapist friday. I'll let yall know how it goes. I'm sorry about all this mess, and I know that you are not professionals. I just need a safe place to land and cant seem to find one anywhere. Sorry.

Thanks Sarita I will do that. I really appriciate it! Love to you!
Rachel