Roll Call........How is Everyone doing

I've really enjoyed reading all the posts. . . It has taken my mind off of things Living in the moment

LIL sis
I am so glad we finally connected
A rough couple of days for us both
You and your family moreso
I am here for you as you know
I will call you tomorrow
Loves big sis

JB
KUDOS to you for the changes...inspiring ........Keep posting and let us know how you are doing

Betsy
So happy you got that puter fixed up
I have no clue what to do with these dang things other than go to HW lol
and MSN

GreenGrove
I am happy these posts have taken your mind away
Keep reading and posting

LYN

I went to visit my sister's family this weekend and I'm very tired today. I thought I would enjoy the visit but it just made me feel more anxious about things, and I did not sleep well at her house. I feel like I'm sliding backwards with confronting my anxiety and really I know I could try harder to manage things. There is so much going on right now, with my health and my family, and it's hard to look at the big picture for all the little pictures that keep showing up. I guess it would help to sort out what I can and can't control and take things a step at a time, but I am not sure how to get started. I do a better job of helping other people with their problems than I do with helping myself and wonder why I do that.

Betsy

hi everyone, to those of you who dont know me my name is... (ill give you one guess.. ) I think ive been on HW for two years when my anxiety started. I went on and off meds because i just didnt want to feel like i needed a pill in order to not be afraid. I know now that in order to maintain a healthy life right now, meds are the answer for me, mixed with some CBT.

Lately ive been doing very well, except for the occasional anxiety flares. Sometimes ill see a fly out of the corner of my eye, but before realizing it is actually a fly, i think, what if im going crazy and im seeing a flicker in my peripheal vision..wierd i know.. i gotta stop thinking that im waiting for the day that i go crazy!!

does anyone know how Kyl is doing?? he was on here a while ago with some anxiety, i was wondering how he was doing, Nikki good for you that you are going back to school, i went back to school last semester and have found that keeping my mind on homework and not stinkin thinkin, ive been able to lessen the anxiety,

Percy cat is there a post of yours that tells the story of your anxiety? I get bits and pieces of it from your posts and would love to hear your whole sotry, you sound like a very inspiring person to lyn and kitt.

Thanks to you all for all your support, and replies to the posts that ive posted in my most scariest of times! Im so glad that ive found this place, its always there, even if i dont come on for a while.

ps, is this website based outside of the US?? just curious i see a lot of people are from the UK and Austrailia, which is awesome! I wish i could go to both places!

 

Kate Kate
Havent seen you for awhile
I am hoping you will stick around
and join into some of the other threads as well

Many new and great ppl here to get to know hun

Keep on staying with us

Good to see you around again for sure

......LYN

Hello all,

This is Kitt and I am doing good. As most of you know my oldest sister died on thanksgiving day of 2007 after a 6 week illness.

This years on 8/13/2008 my only other sister was flown to MN with ovarian cancer. She has been at the U of MN now for 103 days. When she is not in the hospital she and her daughter stay at the Cancer Society Hope Lodge.

She has improved on the chemo but of course lost her hair. Yesterday she, her daughter, my daughter and I took her wig shopping. She found one she liked but when the sales lady was going to trim it and get it ready for her, her daughter said she did not have enough money in her account until her SSI check is deposited.

My daughter and I were looking at each other and we just nodded and I told the lady to put the wig back on my sisters head as she was not leaving the store without hair. My sister just started to cry and kept saying "Thank you, thank you" I told her that Karen and I wanted to do this for her.

She is going home to North Dakota for Thanksgiving and she is going with one hot new hair do............It really was cute on her.

Karen and I gave her back some dignity and the gift was greater for us then for my sister. Giving something to a cancer patient and seeing the instant results was a real high.

I am still smiling as her face lit up.

This is where I have to brag a bit and tell you that I have a wonderful daughter and she is generous to a fault but how happy her generosity made her Auntie Bev.

Well that is my happy story.

Love to all and to Big Sis for giving me ideas on how to help my sister get through the Cancer.

Dan,

We always love to see your name on the board. You have been an outstanding member of HealingWell and I am happy that things are OK with you.

Take care my dear Dan. (((((((((HUGS)))))))

Kitt

im exhausted. my arthritis is playing up, im still riding out the whole 'ulcerated eye' bit. im on an excellent, safe diet but the results are slow and i hate my body. it is the strongest form of self loathing when i look in the mirror- i spent the the first 22yrs of life (at 5ft11) never weighing more than 60kg- model proportions. then i changed from prozac to zoloft and BAM! big weight gain that is impossible to budge. i used to be the extroverted life of the party. now im borderline reclusive because i hate people seeing me. i feel trapped in a foreign body. exercise is basically out of the question cos of arthritis and fibromyalgia, so i eat very carefully, im on 1200 calories a day.

im sick to death of my physical sickness- forget the A/P, the physical stuff alone in enough to drive me batty. i first got sick (both physically and mentally) at 14. im now 28- i have spent half my entire life being chronically ill. 9 surgeries as well.

im strong for all my friends, they come to me for advice, to unload etc, but who will be strong for me? they try to be understanding about my health, but they have come to expect me bailing on plans at the last minute cos of health and A/P.

please excuse my wallowing- im tired of being this way, i need to go and mark essays, joy of joys. what a way to spend my sunday. [img]/community/emoticons/rolleyes.gif[/img]

Time for check in, we all want to hear from you and share the good and the not so good.  Just share how you are doing?

Hugs

Kitt

Tonight is not doing so good for me. I have been doing real well for the past two weeks, but I have to travel tomorrow and the anxiety has reared its ugly head. I have the chest discomfort (tightening) and then I begin thinking 1. I am going to have a panic attack 2. I will have the heart attack that I always worry about even though the ten doctors I have seen say my heart is fine. These are my negative thoughts that I try and meditate and relax and bring myself back into the moment and not into the future.

I know I will be fine traveling even though I will have the anxious feelings through out the trip. I don't worry about driving, I worry about losing control while driving and not being near a hospital.

CC

HI All

Im not feeling the best today had no sleep last night and it was a very long day at work was feeling depressed/anxious which did not help. I also seem to be suffering some side effects from the new medication im taking (Effexor xl) feeling light headed and sick and i have also lost my appetite so not eating much.

Sorry to moan

Good Morning,

Did you all survive Black Friday? I did and that was because I stayed at home.

It is getting a little tough for me right now but I know my issues are not greater than some of what I read here so I will start trying harder to hold it together.

If only I had one person that would come over and root me on. Help me think through the issues of anxiety that overwhelm me but I do know that each of us will support each other but we must make our own journey through anxiety and depression alone. No one else can fix us except ourselves.

Alright, Kitt, just wiggle your nose and you will be find.

Hugs and love

Kitt

Hello My Friend,

Thanks for checking in. I am hoping your depression improves as the holiday season is coming fast. Remember you must take care of you first.............that is an order from all of us. You have to take care of number 1.

Someone was just asking about Effexor on the site. I hope they read your post.

Gentle Hugs to you and remember you have control over anxiety................keep taking thos babysteps toward healing.

Kitt