Worried

 

  I am rather loney infact I can say that Im very loney, even though  I currently live with my brother and  parents.   This is because when I go to talk to my parents My mother often does the following.  Oh hang on while I do such such....    I'm busy watching Tv can't you see that. Or Shut up your voice annoys me. ( I have spasmodic dystonia I cant help it when I go into spasms  I have no control over it)  Trouble is  I feel the way I am treated at home is starting to  manifest  itself  in strange ways when I go out.  Today when I went out shopping  I acted like a lunitic, I had blisters on my feet and I made a drama out of it and spoke to anyone about it that would listen and about having trouble finding good shoes.   I was a complete loony  and I  cant afford to act that way because   I am a teacher. If children's parents see their child's teacher losing it like that  they'll complain and I'll lose my job a job that I love and worked hard to get.   Can someone please advise on what I can do I dont want to end up a complete loony....

  

Hi poppy

Welcome to healingwell this is a great forum to be a member on. Sorry to hear you are having a rough time of it at the moment sounds like things at home are hard for you at the moment. Have you spoke to your parents about how you are feeling? Please dont let things build up as i did as this will cause you more problems in the long run. I had some therapy and found that really helped me to talk to someone regarding my mental health this maybe something you could think about? I would also goto your doctor and be honest with what you tell him/she and they may be able to give you some good advice re any medication if you decided to go down that route.

Take care and keep us posted.

Poppy40

Welcome to HealingWell and I am so glad you have found us.

I like the idea of approaching your parents in a nonjudgemental way and attempting to share with them your feelings.

I also feel strongly that therapy would be of great help to you so please do consider both of these suggestions.

Again a warm welcome, you have joined a great family.

Gentle Hugs

Kitt

Thanks for your responses  most of you are right I should find the courage to talk to my family

Im sure if I could heal  the problems within my family  I would heal myself.   Today I had a great day and I feel alot more relaxed,   Yesterday gave me a scare  but it was good because it made do  some much needed thinking. It made me realise I need to   wake up to myself I realise I  am no longer a child, I am an adult with responsibilities, and I really do not need to  put on an attention seeking act when I find things get a little difficult or am in pain. I figure, I have worked really hard over the last ten years to get ahead in life  I finally  have found an occupation I love  and Im not going to let bad behaviour  spoil all that...Particularly when I have the ability to correct my own behaviour.

  I also thank alot of you as I have worked out from reading some of your illnesses that I have nothing to complain about with my dystonia , At least I have good days when Im not in pain or have tremors and I can make the most of those good days.

Ps  St John wart also helps a great deal  it is a natural sedative.

Love Poppy...