Vent of pain

i can spell- i apologise in advance for any typos- ive had to take some serious presc pain killers and im a bit 'wobbly'.

im meant to be enjoying my school holidays but i cant relax, its just one thing after the other. I dont normally post every time i feel unwell, cos if i did, id never get off here, lol

but i have spent the better part of today rupturing an Ovarian Cyst which is more painful than i have words for. I have had 3 lots of surgery on my ovaries, and still the cysts come back and then they internally tear open and like i said, i have no words. the Polycsytic surgery is somehat akin to being butchered with a huge blunt knife. niiiiiiice.

Im hopped up on pain pills now, so im hoping this makes sense cos im feeling warm and fuzzy in the head, but sadly my guts are spasming and cramping and tearing, its like a hot ice pick repeatedly jabbed into the same spot on lower abdomen.

and yes im having a pity party.

i went to the dr on saturday, only to have my blood tests come back positive for Glandular Fever AGAIN, i mean jeez, its summer here and i have swollen glands, extreme flu symptoms- i cannot win. my BP was 89/59. not great. have no energy.

i have to go back to the dr tomorrow to get a hormone balancing injection for the cysts- im 28, not a menopausal lady! oh and my latest Cat Scan and MRI showed that even after extensive sinus surgery last year, my sinuses are basically rotting in my head and my ears are taking the brunt of that.

its unfaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaair.

my fibro is flaring, my lower abdomen is being wrenched, i cant sleep cos of my pain, my glands are so swollen i look like i got the mumps- the only thing that is healthy and thriving is my pity and self loathing. lovely.

with my friends im always strong for them. ive had alot more 'life experience' than many of them, and they come to me for advice and support and strength and this is great, but who is going to be strong for me?

ok ok my rant and ramble is over. im going to get a heat pack for my tummy and read until i fall asleep (fingers crossed)

love to all.

Maz XX

Dear Maz,

Yes you have way to much going on and do use your pain pills as ordered.  The Pity Party is in order so let me organzie it for you.  We  will need lots of kleenex, and chocolate, and ice cream, and some sad songs playing on the radio, I will rent some tear jerker DVDs and be over as quick as I can.  We won't put on our make up cuss all that mascara will make us look like racoons and I will give you a nice massage to your back while you tell me all your troubles.......................man I wish we could do that.

Sometimes when I was in my deepest despair and thought I was never going to get better and could not sleep my hubby would give me a foot massage every night and finally I would relax, the meds would kick in and I would finally drift off to sleep.

I really wish I could send you a genie in a bottle to make you better.  I makes me feel so sad to hear of your pain.

You have my prayers sweetie and you know I am right here, eons away, but I am here.

Now if anyone thinks I have been insensitive to Maz re Pity Party, I am not...................I think the world of Maz and she knows I am just trying to put a smile on her face by teasing her.

Luvs my Aussie Angel

Kitt

Maz, I'm sorry you're feeling so badly! Everything seems to be going wrong for you right now, doesn't it? It will get better! Keep coming on here, pray, and keep a positive attitude. Make sure you baby yourself. Rest and get lots of sleep. Hopefully, you don't have to work this week. Take care sweetie, Carol

I'm so sorry for all you are going through right now Maz. . . Please take care of yourself and get better. You are in my prayers my friend :)

Maz.... I'll be right over for that pity-party.... you'll have to bring soft snaks Kitt because I don't plan on wearing my dentures!!!!!! Now won't that be a sight! I'm actually quite 'cute' without them ... I know my grandaughter laughs and laughs when I stick my lower lip over my nose!!!! (its quite a feat, I dare you to try it ) would that work for you dear Maz... Now after the tear jerker movies... we need a little comic relief... some silly funny movies that will make us pee our pants laughing.... then we can all feel even more sorry for ourselves because we've all been incontinent! Personally, if I pee my pants laughing , I usually issue a tsunami warning prior to the big wave !
I'm just joking Maz... I wish I could be there, make you a cool drink... rub your feet and back ... get you a hot water bottle for your tummy ( my daughter has had cysts rupture and I have been there to hear her scream in pain) .... Oh how I wish I had a magic wand that could take all your bo-bos away! Know that I love you sweetie... am praying for you with every beat of my heart .
Tired and toothless old Mary

  OH! and about 20 mins ago, my left eardrum finally ruptured after a veeeerrry long 48hrs of major painful earache. the eardrum tore. may i say "ouch"?.  there goes my equilibrium. oooooowwwww ooooooowww   unfaaaaaaaaair

this is NOT a fun way to spend the holidays. this is NOT a fun way to ring in the new year. this is
NOT fun. how dare my body to this to me!

im getting a little 'emoticon' happy/heavy handed. i should stop.......

this suuuuucks.

Maz XX

Maz I know you are celebvrating New Year's so here is a little toon for you..................

I was dreamin' when I wrote this
Forgive me if it goes astray

But when I woke up this mornin'
Coulda sworn it was judgment day

The sky was all purple
There were people runnin' everywhere

Tryin' 2 run from the destruction
U know I didn't even care

'Cuz they say two thousand zero zero party over
Oops out of time
So tonight I'm gonna party like it's 1999

                            

Hey we made it through 2000 and much further so we will continue on into 2009 still partying like it's 1999.

Love you my friend

Kitt

Thankyou Diane! i think i posted this a couple of days ago and expected to be feeling better by now, but im not. i feel like a bus hit me and i look like hell. all the makeup in the world cant hide the black rings around my eyes and my pasty skin- im severely anemic and my BP is very low. add all the phsyical pain to the mix and it becomes a nightmare. im not sleeping properly due to the pain, my Fibro is flaring in my neck and so many things have just hit me at once and i feel like a child who wants to have a tantrum. i got my hormone injection for my ovarian cysts yesterday and ever since have been in a fetal position with a heat pack, feeling like im in labour (not that i really know how labour feels )

and then on top of the glandular fever, my ear went and ruptured. ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow. im still going to pull myself together and endeavour to have a great NYE. a relaxed, laidback night with a few friends and a view of the sydney harbour bridge fireworks. this is where the prescription pain meds come in handy!!  Diane thankyou so much for your kind words- i hope and pray you have an excellent NYE and an awesome 2009. i really appreciate your response.

Blessings & peace,

Maz XX

p.s also, Nikki, dont feel bad! i am sick 99% of the time, i just dont normally mention it- dont ever feel you cant complain to me, i dont mind, i really dont!

Thanks Sam. im in a really bad way at the moment.

Maz

Hey Babygirl,

I was just thinking of you and was going to post asking if you were feeling any better, but from your post I guess not. I am so sorry you are so sick right now. I am developing a cold myself, and not happy about it one bit. Keep taking your pain meds and be sure you rest properly. Can you put a call into the doc and maybe get a stronger anti-biotic, sounds like it might be called for at this point. I know its another expense, but you really need to kick that infection out. And then you got all the ovarian cysts, ow, ow, ow.

Bless your heart, sure hope you get feeling better soon. And if you need me, you know where to find me.

Gentle Hugs,
Gail *Nanners*

ps: I can call you my babygirl because you are my daughters age:) And of course, cuz I loves you soooo!!

Your still in my prayers {{{Maz}}}

I sure hope things start getting better for you. You've been through so much and give a lot of yourself and I respect you for that my friend :)

Get Well Soon!!!